DrinkyCrow
Zap to the extreme
- May 2, 2023
- 61
Hey, it's me again unfortunately.
One my favorite piercing had to get cut out at the ER this weekend (I had it since 2017 ffs) and now i have a open wound in my face.
I'm literally trying right now to whore myself out online to some horny 50year olds, in hopes to get killed or to just bring myself to a point where I really can't live with myself anymore or something.
But honestly? i respect sw'ers too much personally, so i dont even understand my own logic behind this.
I wanna just die as a whored out junkie like god intended for me , I tried to cheat by trying to be a man and get my life on track. At least that's what my stupid brain tells me , the same stupid Brain that tells me that i should start doing heroin and start to suck trucker dick for crack despite me being clean from hard drugs for quite a while now, and never doing stuff like that.
It's kinda like that final destination shit, I cheated death involuntarily too often, despite trying to ctb so often, I'm in a weird limbo or sum shit.
Sorry for my drunk rambling but it's so hard to get that stuff that will 100% kill ya, but also most stuff I could get maybe, i would pull people into that shit which I don't want to feel guilty.
I would literally suck and fuck someones whole bloodline for sum N or carfent or anything like that.
Just take me out of my God damn misery.
One my favorite piercing had to get cut out at the ER this weekend (I had it since 2017 ffs) and now i have a open wound in my face.
I'm literally trying right now to whore myself out online to some horny 50year olds, in hopes to get killed or to just bring myself to a point where I really can't live with myself anymore or something.
But honestly? i respect sw'ers too much personally, so i dont even understand my own logic behind this.
I wanna just die as a whored out junkie like god intended for me , I tried to cheat by trying to be a man and get my life on track. At least that's what my stupid brain tells me , the same stupid Brain that tells me that i should start doing heroin and start to suck trucker dick for crack despite me being clean from hard drugs for quite a while now, and never doing stuff like that.
It's kinda like that final destination shit, I cheated death involuntarily too often, despite trying to ctb so often, I'm in a weird limbo or sum shit.
Sorry for my drunk rambling but it's so hard to get that stuff that will 100% kill ya, but also most stuff I could get maybe, i would pull people into that shit which I don't want to feel guilty.
I would literally suck and fuck someones whole bloodline for sum N or carfent or anything like that.
Just take me out of my God damn misery.