Live in an extremely abusive household I have no way of leaving. I wanted to get in contact with social services for emergency housing and minimum income for cases like mine, but my sister is heavily warning against it since it would probably affect my younger siblings. My sister is 17 and my brother 13. My brother is fine with my parents he has severe autism and they take care of him full time. My sister isn't suffering active abuse at the moment but she's been through some shit. However I am almost 23 and i see no way out. I feel fucking horrible. My whole life I've been depressed. I just see no way out of this. I'm too old. I don't have a highschool diploma. My shitty little town has no jobs available and when I've tried to move to the city i was met with abusive situations specifically so I would enter w depressive state and not even want to get out I'd bed less alone go to a whole new city. I'm wasting away every year. My friends don't care about me.
I'm a virgin. I have body dysmorphia. There's just no part of my life I enjoy besides drugs. I feel like the only way for me to be happy or at least not feel horrible is to have my own space away from my family but it just seems so impossible and unattainable to me. I've even thought about fucking selling my virginity to escape this hell but I'm not sure im hot enough. Idk why I'm even typing this I genuinely have no idea what I'm doing I'm desperate. Does anyone know If there's remote jobs for people without degrees In Europe? All I want is a hug from my mother. Not my actual mom. From my figurative mother who would love me unconditionally and take care of me. My friend is ignoring my messages while typing I miss u to other people on social media.
I'm a virgin. I have body dysmorphia. There's just no part of my life I enjoy besides drugs. I feel like the only way for me to be happy or at least not feel horrible is to have my own space away from my family but it just seems so impossible and unattainable to me. I've even thought about fucking selling my virginity to escape this hell but I'm not sure im hot enough. Idk why I'm even typing this I genuinely have no idea what I'm doing I'm desperate. Does anyone know If there's remote jobs for people without degrees In Europe? All I want is a hug from my mother. Not my actual mom. From my figurative mother who would love me unconditionally and take care of me. My friend is ignoring my messages while typing I miss u to other people on social media.
