rodie9k
Member
- Jan 5, 2022
- 26
I was fairly determined to die over the past few weeks. Today I met with mother and now that motivation is gone.
She loves me and I don't want her to be sad. She loves me because she doesn't know the horrible person I am inside. Her love stems from a misunderstanding.
I wish she could see inside my head to know the kind of person I really am. But she can't, and due to this misunderstanding she will be sad instead of happy when I'm dead.
I wish I hadn't met her. Now all I can think about is everything we did being the last thing we did. She took a stupid selfie with me where I looked like garbage (as usual). That's the last photo. We shared a sandwich, that's the last meal.
I wish she knew the real me and hated me. I wish this for everyone. I'm sorry for posting here. I'm not even sure what I wanna hear from you.
actually, I want you to convince me that my mom's misunderstanding of me and the resulting love isn't worth living for. I know if I continue living then over the years she'll begin to see the real me and start hating me.
I wish that day would come sooner. everyone except my family sees the real me. I think most of my family does, too. except my parents. they're delusional about my worthiness. I think it's because I'm an only son so they have no backup child
She loves me and I don't want her to be sad. She loves me because she doesn't know the horrible person I am inside. Her love stems from a misunderstanding.
I wish she could see inside my head to know the kind of person I really am. But she can't, and due to this misunderstanding she will be sad instead of happy when I'm dead.
I wish I hadn't met her. Now all I can think about is everything we did being the last thing we did. She took a stupid selfie with me where I looked like garbage (as usual). That's the last photo. We shared a sandwich, that's the last meal.
I wish she knew the real me and hated me. I wish this for everyone. I'm sorry for posting here. I'm not even sure what I wanna hear from you.
actually, I want you to convince me that my mom's misunderstanding of me and the resulting love isn't worth living for. I know if I continue living then over the years she'll begin to see the real me and start hating me.
I wish that day would come sooner. everyone except my family sees the real me. I think most of my family does, too. except my parents. they're delusional about my worthiness. I think it's because I'm an only son so they have no backup child