Venting I'm not good enough

[sylvey]

I'm not good enough for my boyfriend I don't deserve him he deserves so much better he deserves the world he deserves all the best things in life and I'll never be the best thing, I'll never be good enough for him I know he loves me I know he thinks I'm pretty I know he wants me to be happy but can't even smile without it looking forced and he's so clingy like not even in the bad way, like in the cutest way and he loves affection but with how I grew up I just suck at showing it and I want to be happy and I am happy in a way because I have him but I hate myself so much because I want him to be happy but I'm not enough to keep him happy no matter how much he loves me, I hate myself so fucking much and all of his exes sound horrible from what he's told me and I want so badly for him to finally have a good relationship and I'd be so happy if it would be with me but he deserves so much better.

 

[sorrynf]

I lost the love of my life to being a worthless sack of shit you'll always be better than me