Im not even sure why i still come here

[SaulGoodmanxX]

Im posting here because this is almost certainly more fitting for the recovery thread. I found this site back in 2023 when i was by far at my worst. Even though ive been rough since, i feel right now in this moment i dont feel even passively suicidal too often. Even the passing blow is rare at the moment. But i still click onto SaSu, ill still scroll a little. Its definitley not good that im here, it can only harm me and make me feel worse at this point. But its comforting, and i think that stems from the small part of me that wants to be at my worst. Whatever, hope you enjoyed the rant.

 

[deny_conformity]

I'm attempting recovery. I still don't want to live but I hang out in the recovery forum to find support and understanding.

I think recovery is far harder than catching the bus and requires that support and understanding.

 

[Jadeith]

Its definitley not good that im here, it can only harm me and make me feel worse at this point. But its comforting, and i think that stems from the small part of me that wants to be at my worst

There might be another reason you're not be aware of or simply refusing to acknowledge.
You know how does it feel like. To be at the bottom. And you do not wish this feeling on anyone. So you come back to see if you can drop a good word or two for someone who you know feels like you felt a while ago. Or maybe just to confirm that you are not alone.