allym101
Ally
- May 29, 2020
- 276
I've spent the last five ish months in the psych ward and i stg that place has made me a full blown looney. I self harm ALOT now and the weird thing is, when I see the blood I get this pleasurable feeling. It's so beautiful and alluring to me. I often fantasize about being stabbed to death as well and it makes me smile. When i see someone with bruises or scars, I'm super attracted to them. I'm f#cked up in the head. I'm not stopping till i'm dead. How is it fair that i have to stay alive just "because"? Because what, you need me to join the working class and fund a corrupt government? You want me to have kids and end up traumatizing them with all my issues? I hate when people say "nooo you have so much to live for" like shut up man. Some people really have no idea what it feels like to truly HATE living. I don't necessarily mean being depressed or sad, I mean full out people who just hate the world and are done.