Red87
Looking for away out of my darkness
- Jul 6, 2020
- 127
All I can think about is my husband if we never got into a fight he never would of walked home he never would of got hit by that car he would still be with me I blame myself it's my fault because I left my phone in the car because I was mad and he walked from work on the most dangerous highway near my house I got to speak to him 10 mins right before he got hit and we had another fight I went looking for him but I couldn't understand his direction he was giving me I was seconds away from him I thought he turned off his phone and was ignoring me but he wasn't he was gone and all I can think about is him lying there dying I didn't get to say goodbye or I'm sorry or how much I loved him I miss his laugh the tough of his warm hands on my face his beautiful golden eyes and the was he called me gorgeous everyone he saw me I'm on the verge of a break down I can't loose him I just can't I need him and love him he made feel life was worth living and now that he is gone I just want to catch the bus and be with him I don't care what's on the other side as long as I'm with him time could stop I could burn forever as long as his there with me that's all that matters I'm sorry for ranting on I just needed to get this out because I'm so alone and I don't want to be alone again I'm ready to just go home where ever that may be