I just need something easy and fast. I can't really buy anything so I have to make do with what I have. I won't make an attempt unless I know it will work because the risk of failure is too great. I was considering running away and walking 12 miles to train tracks but I can't do it tonight because they have another friend sleeping over.
I cant find my carotid arteries with my hands. I just want to make myself pass out but I cant even do that.
I went to one therapy session before my guardian put me in a mental hospital for 2 months. I got admitted because she took my phone out of my hand and I tried to grab it back from her. She overreacted and told the police I assaulted her. While I was in the hospital she got me an SMI determination (I don't know for what) and extended guardianship over me until I'm 19. I really hate her but I can't get her out of my life, I can't even control my own life. I have wanted to die for years now, I was looking forward to turning 18 and going to college as my way out but now I don't even have that anymore. I really can't take it anymore.
Where are your parents? Who is this guardian that has all this control over you? I'm sorry she out you in a mental hospital. What was her reasoning for that? I'm sorry I'm asking so many questions but your situation is very complicated.
She got me out of foster care and I have known her since I was in elementary school, but I really want her out of my life. She is controlling and manipulative and I would have been better off staying in foster care. I haven't lived with my parents since I was 15 because I got kicked out by my dad/ ran away and ended up in the system. She said I assaulted her and overreacted to a shitty situation. It sucks.
