Venting I'm in a crisis

[Ln42]

I don't know what to do and I know no-one here can tell me either.

I'm currently in crisis and have everything needed for SN, I just need to book a hotel room. However, I also know that this crisis will pass, but I'm fed up of feeling like this, even when I'm not in crisis I have major depression and anxiety, BPD, c-PTSD and ADHD. Its a cycle of bad depression and anxiety then a crisis and I need it to stop.

Everytime I look online to book a hotel room for next week I get a really nervous tummy.
I cannot keep living like this with the endless cycles and think I will have to do it next week. I am so overwhelmed.
Sorry that I can't explain myself properly.

Can anyone relate?

 

[Mi Mi]

Yes
I haven't posted yet
But my plans have completely changed
I'm confused because i asked for this
but at the same time its still lots of anxiety of me failing
and even though it's what i asked for will it work
i tend to not get what i want the most
And it's not just a want anymore
it's a need
so i relate

I don't know what to do and I know no-one here can tell me either.

I'm currently in crisis and have everything needed for SN, I just need to book a hotel room. However, I also know that this crisis will pass, but I'm fed up of feeling like this, even when I'm not in crisis I have major depression and anxiety, BPD, c-PTSD and ADHD. Its a cycle of bad depression and anxiety then a crisis and I need it to stop.

Everytime I look online to book a hotel room for next week I get a really nervous tummy.
I cannot keep living like this with the endless cycles and think I will have to do it next week. I am so overwhelmed.
Sorry that I can't explain myself properly.

Can anyone relate?

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry you have to go through this, it's so agonizing.

 

[Ln42]

Thank you @Mi Mi and @Praestat_Mori I appreciate your replies, it helps to know I'm not alone.

 

[Mi Mi]

Thank you @Mi Mi and @Praestat_Mori I appreciate your replies, it helps to know I'm not alone.

Absolutely
One thing I'm actually good as is being caring
You're never alone

 

[Ash]

I hate it when things get overwhelming. I'm there at the moment and I know it as I just want to scratch off every last square inch of skin. I hope you can find some peace and/or stability amidst all the chaos.

 

[Ln42]

I hate it when things get overwhelming. I'm there at the moment and I know it as I just want to scratch off every last square inch of skin. I hope you can find some peace and/or stability amidst all the chaos.

Thank you Ash, I'm so sorry you're there also. It's exhausting. I wish you peace as well and hope it passes quickly.