If you're actually going to CTB soon, then that is one thing. But be 100% sure since it is far far easier to get another job when you're already working one.
Something you might be able to get away with if you get PTO or paid sick leave is use that before you quit.
Like if I was going to CTB, I could live off of whatever I have for a bit, and so on. Then ya I would stop working. But I'm not sure if I would quit since I would try to off myself right away since 12 hours I might flip and not do it. Like wait until the weekend and try to off myself. If it didn't work or can't do it. Then go to work the following Monday.
I know I worry about this and the SI. So far i'm just on a 2 week family emergency leave....I basically told them i had to go back to where i grew up to attend to parent stuff...which is like 6 hours from me....but that's only partially true....i will go home to see visit them this summer, because I want the whole summer free....I have a lot of unresolved childhood pain to deal with, and it is family emergency imo.....SO I still am not freed from them yet.....I have to make a decision....i probably will end up putting in my two week over quitting, cuz i already did nine....that's a good chunk of time for today's standards....I just don't want to keep doing the grind anymore....I would love to just go camping for 2 weeks straight...no one in my friends circle likes to go camping, so i might do a solo trip....I have some money i saved to get underway....so i need the whole summer just to do what the f- i want...but i do worry about that employment gap. But I could make up some BS, like my mom got sick and i was attending to that....She would back me on it....Idk....I am just sick of work, and it's time for me to have the time to do my stuff...
I know how it feels to work a job you hate. Im doing it right now and I want to die. I wouldnt hestitate to off myself if I cant quit. I attempted suicide twice in my life all cuz of this job. If its making you want to ctb... its NEVER worth it.
Same here....I attempted twice in a row at 21, now 39. I think from the beginning of entering the workforce, i saw how toxic people can really be. And modern times are just stressful for the human psyche...imo....i just really feel caged lately at work, even though no one in particular bullies me...though I have had workplace bullies in the past! NOW THAT, is hell.....But i just will not put up with anyone's crap anymore to allow them to bully me! I don't try to start it and i even keep my negatively out of work, but if someone gets in my face, i just don't care anymore, i gonna get in theirs back, becuz i cannot deal with it.... Like you said, never worth it....but i still do fear poverty if i live long enough....just because of downward momentum....
Good luck friend and you've got this!! We're all here to back you up from a distance. Know your worth, girl!! ❤
Thank you for your kind words, and back up :) I don't even like to call them lately, and even to make that phone call was stressful for me....That's part of the social anxiety...She wasn't that pleasant, but she could have been worse...oh well....
