Im going crazy....

[barelyalive]

I can't do this anymore. I can't. Yesterday was the one year anniversary of a friend dying by suicide. Im jealous. Im jealous she had the guts. Im jealous she didn't fail, like i have. I dont want to do this anymore. I dont want to feel this way anymore. I just want to die, but feel guilty about leaving my kids, but even that is fading. I was never meant to be here. I was never meant to be on this earth, at least not this lifetime. I can't do this anymore. I can't.

 

[Faraway1990]

I can't do this anymore. I can't. Yesterday was the one year anniversary of a friend dying by suicide. Im jealous. Im jealous she had the guts. Im jealous she didn't fail, like i have. I dont want to do this anymore. I dont want to feel this way anymore. I just want to die, but feel guilty about leaving my kids, but even that is fading. I was never meant to be here. I was never meant to be on this earth, at least not this lifetime. I can't do this anymore. I can't.

I understand that I've never felt I'm In the right timeline like I know what's right but it's just not there for me instead we're in clown world. <3

 

[Mljonzy]

Our personalities just don't suit life sucks to be on the recieving end of all this bullshit.

 

[not_a_robot]

I can't do this anymore. I can't. Yesterday was the one year anniversary of a friend dying by suicide. Im jealous. Im jealous she had the guts. Im jealous she didn't fail, like i have. I dont want to do this anymore. I dont want to feel this way anymore. I just want to die, but feel guilty about leaving my kids, but even that is fading. I was never meant to be here. I was never meant to be on this earth, at least not this lifetime. I can't do this anymore. I can't.

Did she tell you she was leaving beforehand?

 

[barelyalive]

Did she tell you she was leaving beforehand?

no she didn't tell anyone. wrote some letters to certain people, wrote a seven page note for the general people, sat some of her stuff down and jumped off a bridge into traffic.

 

[not_a_robot]

no she didn't tell anyone. wrote some letters to certain people, wrote a seven page note for the general people, sat some of her stuff down and jumped off a bridge into traffic.

Are you feeling any better today? Seven pages is some length, did you get to read it? I don't mean to pry or make you sad, we talk alot about notes so I'm just curious, did it help the loved ones that she left a note?

 

[barelyalive]

Are you feeling any better today? Seven pages is some length, did you get to read it? I don't mean to pry or make you sad, we talk alot about notes so I'm just curious, did it help the loved ones that she left a note?

yeah, i carry her note with me honestly. Her mom tells me its helped her a lot. I dont know how I feel about it.