sasshimi
david lynched me
- Aug 20, 2019
- 38
I don't post much on SS nor am I that active of a member but reading people's stories and experiences on this site made me feel accepted in a strange way. Alas, I have decided to do full suspension as my method. I practiced partial suspension too many times and it proved to be an ineffective method which resulted a 2 week stay at a psych ward. I'm tired of getting up to nothing, I don't really have anything going on in my life aside from the strong, looming urge to ctb. I have my family but I have never felt more lonely in life until this past month alone. I've lost all connection with every friend I have made this past year and my financial situation factors in my suicidality as well. No matter how hard I try to connect with people, there is this overwhelming distance and I'm too detached from reality as it appears. My social skills will always be subpar and I honestly think I'm destined to take myself out for good. The world is too intimidating for the weak-willed. The majority of us have little to no control over our circumstances, however, I feel relieved knowing that I can accept my mortality and achieve the nothingness I long for.
Thank you everyone on here at SS for all the useful info and wonderful incentives. SS became a haven I go to to feel less lonely. If I somehow don't go through with it, you will hear from me sometime soon. Otherwise - I have successfully ctb! <3
Thank you everyone on here at SS for all the useful info and wonderful incentives. SS became a haven I go to to feel less lonely. If I somehow don't go through with it, you will hear from me sometime soon. Otherwise - I have successfully ctb! <3
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