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call me jvne
- Dec 8, 2023
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I feel like i'm circling back to the beginning of the journey i've had with myself in the past two years of attempting to end my life, I mean, I don't feel completely doomed, but I'm upset at myself and just don't know where to find an explanation to the way I'm feeling, which is rare for myself because I've done a great job at finding reasoning with myself and the causes of my troubles all the time. now I just, even with an open door in front of me I feel like I can't walk through it, and I'm feeling very miserable. vulnerable, and I've noticed that lately I kind of feel a need or want to be taken advantage of at such a time. I don't know why I feel like this, and it's frustrating not knowing given my ability to usually analyze myself and come to terms with the way I am. I kind of have, but st the same time, I feel like i'm just dwelling over nothing if I can't find the explanation, it makes me wonder if this is just human nature…
js venting but of course if you relate to any of this I'm always more than open to listen to your experiences as well
js venting but of course if you relate to any of this I'm always more than open to listen to your experiences as well