Im just listening to Linkin Park, iNirvana and all These brilliant bands non stop... i cant take my life anymore……. it is just too much pain sometimes!!! My good friend Paul is About to die. My grandmother passed away on the 4th July (next week is her funeral - on Tuesday). So on Monday i have to travel all the way up north to my Family.... for About 8 Hours...
i am coughin constantly and have headache...my Body feels weak and i really dont Sleep much These days as there is a huge construction side Right in front of where i ive (and that will be going on for a while!!!) .i am in love with an australian musician who tours in europe at the Moment and i will see him again in August... but hell yeah he lives in australia… still i feel ike that is the guy i want to get married to and have two Children with (if anything).
I miss my Father who is dead since July 2015 and my mother is suffering from anorexia /bulimia ever since im Born and even before that , so im constantly worried for her myself.
my Family are mostly meat eaters (im a vegan) and Living unhealthy Lifestyles so im also constantly worried About them. even though i do have some close Friends in real life, most of them Always let me down when i really need them. i feel much Closer to some virtual Friends or People i have never met in real life, which is part of the reason i am here… sorry just venting on this rainy shitty day. :((
