Venting I'm fed up

[ALittleBurden]

If everything goes well this will be my last post. I'm tired and fed up with this world. I feel like I have control over my nerves again and I am ready to ctb. This website is an amazing place, full of understanding, and even though I haven't been here for a long time, it really helped me to see a community like this.

If I may just ask for one person, who would be patient enough to bear with me a little, to pm me; this would be very appreciated. I have a lot of things I want to get off my chest, and I don't expect a lot of involvement, I just need someone who would at least pretending to listen.

Thank you all.

 

[JimFord99]

You can pm me if you wish, I won't pretend as I am really listen. It has been worthwhile for me to listen to othe forum members here.

 

[ALittleBurden]

I'm doing it! Goodbye, you all!

 

[JimFord99]

ALittleBurden was successful. Safe tourney and RIP .

 

[CURSED again]

maybe it was only self ban? do you know method? Hope they find peace and happiness

 

[Baskol1]

We will see...

 

[JimFord99]

Well, of course I have no proof but had some very last emails yesterday. I don't want to go into details though, but ...

 

[Donewith_]

Well, of course I have no proof but had some very last emails yesterday. I don't want to go into details though, but ...

How can you say that?
Are you really sure about it? What was the time exactly when you last spoke to them if i may ask

Nvm

 

[Lara Francis]

Wishing you peace @ALittleBurden
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[ALittleBurden]

You're all such lovely people! Unfortunately I failed at my attempt and I'm not ready for another, so I guess I'm sorry for saying my goodbyes too early.

 

[Baskol1]

You're all such lovely people! Unfortunately I failed at my attempt and I'm not ready for another, so I guess I'm sorry for saying my goodbyes too early.

Im happy to hear that you stay a bit longer here. It was a very impulsive decision right? Thats why it failed.

 

[ALittleBurden]

Im happy to hear that you stay a bit longer here. It was a very impulsive decision right? Thats why it failed.

It wasn't very impulsive, but I surely didn't predict how hard will I fight for survival.

 

[Baskol1]

It wasn't very impulsive, but I surely didn't predict how hard will I fight for survival.

You tried to hang yourself? Were you discovered?

 

[JimFord99]

Surprised myself you get the hint.

 

[Donewith_]

You're all such lovely people! Unfortunately I failed at my attempt and I'm not ready for another, so I guess I'm sorry for saying my goodbyes too early.

Nothing to be sorry for..
Its alway good to take enough time to reconsider things..

 

[ALittleBurden]

You tried to hang yourself? Were you discovered?

Yes and yes. My full suspention plan didn't work out (it was poorly planned and I was fighting), so I tried partial suspention, and that's when I was found.

 

[Baskol1]

Yes and yes. My full suspention plan didn't work out (it was poorly planned and I was fighting), so I tried partial suspention, and that's when I was found.

Then you ended up in a psychiatric hospital, or not? Why not? Are you now in a psychiatric hospital?

 

[Jean Améry]

You're all such lovely people! Unfortunately I failed at my attempt and I'm not ready for another, so I guess I'm sorry for saying my goodbyes too early.

No need to apologize. There's no guarantee things will go as planned unfortunately and suicide isn't easy. Take care of yourself and evaluate your situation. I'm sure you'll reach the proper conclusion. Good luck to you.

 

[ALittleBurden]

Then you ended up in a psychiatric hospital, or not? Why not? Are you now in a psychiatric hospital?

I'm not, I was found in a stable condition so my family decided to just leave me at home

 

[Baskol1]

I'm not, I was found in a stable condition so my family decided to just leave me at home

So i guess you were lucky. Do your parents accept that youre transgender?

 

[ALittleBurden]

So i guess you were lucky. Do your parents accept that youre transgender?

Yeah I was. I didn't told them this, it's not that important for me so I don't bother.