Im exhausted of always being competitive

[justletmedieplease]

I live in an extremely competitive environment. Just today I got into a heated debate with colleagues, where they proceeded to humiliate me because they couldn't accept that my argument was accurate. It's exhausting. I am so stressed all the time, I feel like it may be the cause of my sudden passing. I feel like I don't matter, my opinion doesn't matter, my life doesn't matter - as if these people keep snatching away the little value I have as a human being and ultimately I'm nothing but an oxygen waste to this planet. I'm fucking tired man

 

[Chupacabra 44]

There are plenty of steps you can take to minimize your competitiveness - mindfulness, meditation, exercise, no caffeine, etc.

In my case, I felt like I was in fight or flight mode my entire life, and I tended to be hyper competitive too. Finally, went to an endocrinologist and it turns out I have significant cortisol disregulation. Perhaps, you have an underlying health issue contributing to your situation.