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Well shit. Alcoholic here, for years or so sober, just had a bottle of wine. Years ago that wouldn't have touched the sides, now I'm drunker than an Irish Catholic priest on a Sunday night.
So go ahead. Ask me whatever you want, you MFs. All my filters are down. Maybe I'll bite. Either that or fall asleep. Or don't. Who cares?
Nothing is ever forgotten.
 
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I'm sorry to hear you've hit the bottle again, good job on staying sober for so long though. What made you go back to it? Sending hugs :hug::heart:
 
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Well shit. Alcoholic here, for years or so sober, just had a bottle of wine. Years ago that wouldn't have touched the sides, now I'm drunker than an Irish Catholic priest on a Sunday night.
So go ahead. Ask me whatever you want, you MFs. All my filters are down. Maybe I'll bite. Either that or fall asleep. Or don't. Who cares?
Nothing is ever forgotten.


Drunk as f,
Don't care about SH1T,
No emotions, no worries, NOTHING!
Let's see if I get hangover tomorrow,
ABSOLUT!
:sunglasses: :pfff:

Apparently today is the day for everyone to get fucked up! I've gota catchup to you guys! This is for you two and Soulless!

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Realism.

Cheers. What happened to Soulless? I know her account was found out, I thought she'd be back...
She will probably be back. I dunno if she's giving it time in between right now or what.
 
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Sinai Silence

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Sorry to hear that buddy, reality is suffering. I'm currently recovering from a hangover, I hope yours wont be too rough.
 
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Sorry to hear that buddy, reality is suffering. I'm currently recovering from a hangover, I hope yours wont be too rough.
I'm immune to hangovers! That's when you know you're one with the bottle.
 
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I stopped suffering from hangovers 30 years ago. However, tomorrow my bowel will cease to function, so there's that joy to look forward to. Ah well. Every action has its consequence.

Seriously, I'm still pissed. If anyone wants an unfiltered answer from me, I'm likely to give it and fuckit if I get cancelled or banned or whatever.
 
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I stopped suffering from hangovers 30 years ago. However, tomorrow my bowel will cease to function, so there's that joy to look forward to. Ah well. Every action has its consequence.

Seriously, I'm still pissed. If anyone wants an unfiltered answer from me, I'm likely to give it and fuckit if I get cancelled or banned or whatever.
You're too epic to get the can. What are your current thoughts on?
What are 3 things that really piss you the fuck off?
 
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You're too epic to get the can. What are your current thoughts on?
What are 3 things that really piss you the fuck off?
Oh you had to bloody ask didn't you? You sure you want to know that? This is me, remember... It's not going to be straightforward...
 
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Oh you had to bloody ask didn't you? You sure you want to know that? This is me, remember... It's not going to be straightforward...
Hey man, you offered! Don't open that box if you don't like what's inside :pfff:
 
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Fair enough
 
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Good tunes to set the mood! So Mr Potato Sir, what's going on lately? You better be drinking potato based alcohol!
 
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1. I'm in the process of ditching all my Microsoft, google, Amazon accounts and moving over to Linux and Ubuntu on the mobile, as much as I can. We've been sold a mass consensus delusion and we all buy into it and it's too late. I wish I'd fucked off to the mountains twenty years ago. Welcome to the dystopian future everyone's been dreading, only it's already happened and is way too late and we all clapped as it jogged on by cus we are all potatoes.

2. Just read Voltaire's most famous quote. We are just fucking animals and how wonderful and tragic is that? Bleh.

3. I want another bottle of wine. I have lost too many people. I don't care for sympathy so much but I do feel very lonely. But then again I find I don't like most people. Hahaha hahahaha hahaha. Couldn't write it better if I tried.
 
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1. I'm in the process of ditching all my Microsoft, google, Amazon accounts and moving over to Linux and Ubuntu on the mobile, as much as I can. We've been sold a mass consensus delusion and we all buy into it and it's too late. I wish I'd fucked off to the mountains twenty years ago. Welcome to the dystopian future everyone's been dreading, only it's already happened and is way too late and we all clapped as it jogged on by cus we are all potatoes.

2. Just read Voltaire's most famous quote. We are just fucking animals and how wonderful and tragic is that? Bleh.

3. I want another bottle of wine. I have lost too many people. I don't care for sympathy so much but I do feel very lonely. But then again I find I don't like most people. Hahaha hahahaha hahaha. Couldn't write it better if I tried.
Beautiful and my sentiments exactly, it seems we face very similar dilemmas.

1: The writing has been on the wall for some time now.

2: I've always said we're just animals and people seem to have contempt for me when I say that.

3: There is never enough booze to satisfy once you get started!
 
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Yeah. Hence, Hell in a Bucket by, of all people, the Grateful Dead. As I say, I couldn't write it better. I can't wait to see what the US election brings. I'm not sure it will make much difference either way.
 
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Yeah. Hence, Hell in a Bucket by, of all people, the Grateful Dead. As I say, I couldn't write it better. I can't wait to see what the US election brings. I'm not sure it will make much difference either way.
We've been fucked for a while now. It doesn't matter which puppet they elect, two sides of the same coin.

I love ya tho man! You're the real MVP here. Since we're drinking together I just had to get that out of the way right quick. Potato hugs brother :))

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Cheers Brick. Nice fig leaf. :pfff:
 
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May I join your honeymoon with shrooms. We're getting best mates lately.
This saturday, took them in the middle of nowhere, like in the deep wild. Soon after I crossed 2 persons in uniforms with guns at their belt ...policemen patrolling. Impossible scenario. Not invented, god put on an art play move ! Good laff
I insulted a tree. I swear I didn't run into it but it tried to beat the shit out of me. Also was replying to my GPS. Overall, felt a tad closer to a Gonzo of Las Vegas Parano, sweaty but captivated.

I planned the almighty elixir for tonight, N (only sampling...). Gotta feed your curiosity when it's calling out !

Special Rorschach test for drunkards. What to see ? Glasses permitted if you already see double. Nighty
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edit : enjoy your naked alcohol for me. N tastes absolutely awful, admitting way worse than I anticipated. Hard to describe but it gives me repeated chills and uncontrolled head movements of disgust (rare for me!), is tingling and abrasive as well as with a fishy undernote. Chasing it with alcohol doesn't help a lot to make it go away completely, even revives it somehow if unflavoured. Best to use sweet cocktail like alcohol (Malibu) than too dull / corrosive (Rhum).
Ah, that is a way to kill the old enjolras symbolically ;) Gonna rest now. Only 125mg. Have to escort it
 
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:( I can't buy a bottle until either tomorrow or the next day. about to say screw it and buy a case.

enjoy fellas. I'll just sit here shuffling my feet.
 
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Well I'm sober now. 30 odd years of tolerance effects don't go away in four years unfortunately. Fuck me sideways with rock hard turd, but I'm going to suffer tomorrow. I'm still feeling belligerent though.
Ah well, I'm going to bed.
Years ago, I wudda staggered outside to find the next party and the next one after that and so on.
But now, I'm going to bed.
 
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Drinking is the only thing that can make me socialize which is kinda sad but I think of it more like a cool power up
 
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Cheers Brick. Nice fig leaf. :pfff:
I wear it like a fucking boss!

Well I'm sober now. 30 odd years of tolerance effects don't go away in four years unfortunately. Fuck me sideways with rock hard turd, but I'm going to suffer tomorrow. I'm still feeling belligerent though.
Ah well, I'm going to bed.
Years ago, I wudda staggered outside to find the next party and the next one after that and so on.
But now, I'm going to bed.

Well shit, you're doing it wrong because I'm still drunk as shit and only going higher!
 
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edit : enjoy your naked alcohol for me. N tastes absolutely awful, admitting way worse than I anticipated. Hard to describe but it gives me repeated chills and uncontrolled head movements of disgust (rare for me!), is tingling and abrasive as well as with a fishy undernote. Chasing it with alcohol doesn't help a lot to make it go away completely, even revives it somehow if unflavoured. Best to use sweet cocktail like alcohol (Malibu) than too dull / corrosive (Rhum).
Ah, that is a way to kill the old enjolras symbolically ;) Gonna rest now. Only 125mg. Have to escort it

To finish the report, took 2ml of vet liquid (Pisabental) at 11pm + a bit of alcohol (Malibu & Ballantine's Brasil, the latter wasn't a great match cause enhanced somehow the disgusting taste instead of mask it). Begun to feel heavy, first at eyelids then spreading around at 23:35, then increasingly going forward. Managed to fall asleep around midnight. Woke up at 8am, slightly more depressed & tired than without but really ok without hangover. Overall, tolerated a lot better than sleeping pills (Zolpidem, Zopiclone) before and after. No weird bad feelings, contrary to the sedatives.
Just the taste is evil, bizarre, worse and unlike anything I've tried in my life. If taking a lot more, I believe I would drift away quickly and deeply. However, dealing with the taste would be my final thoughts. It surely lasts as strong during a couple of long minutes and gets your attention. However, I never felt nauseous, despite that it was horrid... so good news.
Conclusion, surely can be done if motivated / determined, but there's also an interest to get it by IV, supervised with a swiss right-2-die org. If I later could be accepted and pay at such facility, I would choose it over DIY.
 
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I'm quite drunk tonight. i forgot how much I want human contact when actually drunk.

I can't possibly imagine liking someone enough to want their touch

the reoccurring thought is just how much I want death. just how much I don't want to wake up tomorrow.
 
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May 7, 2020
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We've been sold a mass consensus delusion and we all buy into it and it's too late. I wish I'd fucked off to the mountains twenty years ago. Welcome to the dystopian future everyone's been dreading, only it's already happened and is way too late and we all clapped as it jogged on by cus we are all potatoes... I have lost too many people. I don't care for sympathy so much but I do feel very lonely. But then again I find I don't like most people.
I'm with you on that, brother. But I can't help but laugh at all the "normal" people who continue to be willingly blind to it and have planned no contingencies.

We've been fucked for a while now. It doesn't matter which puppet they elect, two sides of the same coin.
Amen! Too much life wasted on stuff that doesn't directly affect us.
 
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