TheLostCause
Falling Apart
- Nov 7, 2020
- 91
Hello. So i havent been active for a long while, had some failed attempts, hospital admissions, therapy none of it is any help.
So i have my date set, this friday. I have my plan all set out just 1 thing left to get which i shall get on the day. I have 2 therapy appointments between now and then, i have to attend them or they will know something is wrong, they already know im struggling but they havent a clue i have my date and plan set.
Right now my problem is im struggling so much i want to up the date but when ive done things impulsively in the past it ends in disaster so i want to stick to what i have.
Im in so much mental pain. I dont know how to get through the coming days. I just need some distraction something to occupy myself until then. Any suggestions for someone who is terrified to leave the house and has no money to buy anything? TV isn't helping, my dog is a little but i have 0 motivation to do anything with her and as awful as it is, i dont want to think too much about her because i get upset at the thought of leaving her. I thought about self harm as thats my usual go to but i cant even move off the settee.
I dont really know the point of this post other than venting on how much im struggling to people who actually understand.
So i have my date set, this friday. I have my plan all set out just 1 thing left to get which i shall get on the day. I have 2 therapy appointments between now and then, i have to attend them or they will know something is wrong, they already know im struggling but they havent a clue i have my date and plan set.
Right now my problem is im struggling so much i want to up the date but when ive done things impulsively in the past it ends in disaster so i want to stick to what i have.
Im in so much mental pain. I dont know how to get through the coming days. I just need some distraction something to occupy myself until then. Any suggestions for someone who is terrified to leave the house and has no money to buy anything? TV isn't helping, my dog is a little but i have 0 motivation to do anything with her and as awful as it is, i dont want to think too much about her because i get upset at the thought of leaving her. I thought about self harm as thats my usual go to but i cant even move off the settee.
I dont really know the point of this post other than venting on how much im struggling to people who actually understand.