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idontlikethehouse44

idontlikethehouse44

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Feb 2, 2026
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There's one thing I have to make clear before starting this vent, I don't hate my family, I don't hate anyone in general. Although my family keeps fucking with me and puts labels on me just because I am myself, doesn't mean I hate them. Hate means you lost, and I don't want to lose.

My family, especially my brother, let's call him M, and my mom. Idk why but they always keep trying to invoke a reaction out of me, literally anything I do, M keeps making fun of me and makes everything I do or say a joke. And when I do defend myself, (rightfully so) they always play the "I don't know how to take a joke" card, and then my mother proceeds to add on what M says. When I know, as M's brother, that he was never joking. M calls me labels like "Autistic" or "Mentally Ill" just for quite literally existing, anything I do or don't M always tries to use that against me and HE ALWAYS puts words in my mouth, and makes insane assumptions about me. He's a 'Muslim' btw, not that I'm religious anyway, it's just kinda hypocritical of him. My family is my ONLY driving point for suicide, my family is the only ones who can fucking break me, and I'm disgusted at them for what they're trying to do to me, I have a plan to not react to what M says about me, but it's easier said than done for me.

It feels like everyone in my family is against me in some sort of twisted ways, not just M and my mom, but my entire family as well. Yet they always disguise this as "love". All I want from my family is some sort of peace and quiet, that's all I want, yet they won't listen to me. And I hate the part where when I'm fucking overwhelmed with say anger, my family fucking gangs up on me, always asks questions about me or what I'm feeling, and I'm like, "I don't fucking care!" I keep telling them to leave them alone, but because M always keeps putting words in my mouth, and keeps talking just to talk, he called me a bad person and always use the "autistic" label.

I live in a family that is probably more insane than me, the only thing I have is my phone and I use that as an escape to all of this. The only thing I would wish for is to at least give some respect for me, I'm the older brother of the family, and I always feel like I'm pathetic for someone in this position. They constantly keep insulting me, putting words in my mouth, and always keep fucking with me, and that's why I find this family disgusting. It comes to a point where my teachers treat me better than my own family, the people who I'm supposed to be very close to.

Anyways, that's it, sorry if this is some dumb rant, let me know if you guys agree, or not.
 
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larplarpsahur

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Feb 3, 2026
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being silently outcasted sucks, i hope you can find moving out later as something to keep u going šŸ˜”
 

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