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Amandye13
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- Sep 22, 2020
- 33
I can't handle my shit anymore. I am cutting right after I went to therapy and talked to my mom. I have absolutely no stable support in my life and everyone is pushing me away from what I believe is true. And how can I even trust myself, my values, my beliefs, my thoughts, my desires when I'm the fucked up one? I am so done, I so want to die. How immature and pathetic of me, but if I die I won't be thinking of this anymore so whatever. Everything about my existence is bad and wrong and I can't hadle it anymore. What is the point in pushing through a painful life? If life feels so bad and will forever be painful then what is the point? And what is the point of having to be rid of your pain and confusion in order to be lovable? Fuck this paradox shit. I can't suffer anymore I feel like I am burning in fire every day because of all my problems and I am all alone. I don't understand why I came here on Earth but I do know why I want to go. I wish I wasn't such a pussy about it. And I can't find a 100% way to do it. But I am definitely not staying for 50 extra years of this torture.