I'm currently overconfident and slutty

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

For once, I thought I was genuinely doing well. But I think I might be slipping into a mini manic episode. The distinction is very subtle. Confident is a feeling of ease. Overconfidence is a feeling of being driven hard, and the slutty part...I feel like picking people up and entertaining them. Feel very beautiful and very hungry.

Do I go to the hospital? Not sure yet.

Sucks to be me.

 

[OzymandiAsh]

Uh ok? Not sure why this is in suicide discussion.

 

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

I'll say more later when my brain is worth a damn. But I'm tired of thinking everything good in my life, every light at the end of the tunnel...is a train.

 

[39hatsune]

Uh ok? Not sure why this is in suicide discussion.

i feel like people generally use the suicide discussion to vent about other things too, like this persons manic episode

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

At what point would you feel it's time to go to the hospital? And is there anything that helps?

 

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

At what point would you feel it's time to go to the hospital? And is there anything that helps?

I think someone needs to take my phone away before I make an ass of myself. One of the signs of mania is I absolutely can't put my phone down and I have hair trigger rage.

As far as what I personally can do by myself, this sounds funny and it is, but...I absolutely must go to the hospital if I notice that I'm in love with my psychiatrist and buy a sex toy from Walmart. I'm not even joking.

Right now, I need to remedy my blood sugar problem and get some sleep.

I know me posting this on the forum is random, but I live alone and posting here makes me feel like I have eyes on me.

 

[YourLocalEdgelord]

I know me posting this on the forum is random, but I live alone and posting here makes me feel like I have eyes on me.

I think that's why many of us are here. There's so few to talk to about these taboo topics. They shouldn't be taboo though. I'm glad this site managed to survive.

 

[39hatsune]

I think someone needs to take my phone away before I make an ass of myself. One of the signs of mania is I absolutely can't put my phone down and I have hair trigger rage.

As far as what I personally can do by myself, this sounds funny and it is, but...I absolutely must go to the hospital if I notice that I'm in love with my psychiatrist and buy a sex toy from Walmart. I'm not even joking.

Right now, I need to remedy my blood sugar problem and get some sleep.

I know me posting this on the forum is random, but I live alone and posting here makes me feel like I have eyes on me.

is increased sex drive a thing with mania? ive sort of noticed it too and find it hard to not make a fool out of myself with certain people lmao

dont be afraid to use the forum for whatever, theres always people here to listen :) im glad it makes you feel better

 

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

is increased sex drive a thing with mania? ive sort of noticed it too and find it hard to not make a fool out of myself with certain people lmao

dont be afraid to use the forum for whatever, theres always people here to listen :) im glad it makes you feel better

Oh yes. Hypersexuality is a classic sign of mania. Mine is so bad I have physical symptoms. And it might sound fun, but it's not. I actually sprained my ribs during one of my... activities.

 

[39hatsune]

Oh yes. Hypersexuality is a classic sign of mania. Mine is so bad I have physical symptoms. And it might sound fun, but it's not. I actually sprained my ribs during one of my... activities.

yes i can relate in some way not so fun

 

[amputatedandalone]

For once, I thought I was genuinely doing well. But I think I might be slipping into a mini manic episode. The distinction is very subtle. Confident is a feeling of ease. Overconfidence is a feeling of being driven hard, and the slutty part...I feel like picking people up and entertaining them. Feel very beautiful and very hungry.

Do I go to the hospital? Not sure yet.

Sucks to be me.

Be careful. My last manic episode made me overconfident and slutty. I ended up addicted to cocaine and ketamine and booze, fucking my dealer, then losing my legs due to diabetes + drug addiction complications.... and then my friends and family ditched me because of what I did to myself.

Now there's no way out. Everything is a reminder of the good ol days. No more friends, no more family, and I can't even take a walk and think about it. I can't go out in public because I hate the horrible monster I am. My own brother will no longer speak to me. Not a friend in the world left. Watching TV and movies, seeing people walk and dance, makes me so sad. There's no way I can live another 20 years without being able to take a walk in the woods or the hills, or go to live music or a movie. Nobody is every going to love or care about me again. And I deserve it..... I did it all to myself.

So watch out for those manic episodes. Now I'm praying this darkweb SN is potent enough to end this lonely nightmare. I'm going to be homeless in a few months too, and I ruined my reputation in my field so I could never work again either, even if I wanted to. And my taxes are all fucked up. I'm praying this SN is good enough to ctb with.

 

[Alpacachino]

Echoing the above post,That seems pretty reckless.Please be careful.

 

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

Be careful. My last manic episode made me overconfident and slutty. I ended up addicted to cocaine and ketamine and booze, fucking my dealer, then losing my legs due to diabetes + drug addiction complications.... and then my friends and family ditched me because of what I did to myself.

Now there's no way out. Everything is a reminder of the good ol days. No more friends, no more family, and I can't even take a walk and think about it. I can't go out in public because I hate the horrible monster I am. My own brother will no longer speak to me. Not a friend in the world left. Watching TV and movies, seeing people walk and dance, makes me so sad. There's no way I can live another 20 years without being able to take a walk in the woods or the hills, or go to live music or a movie. Nobody is every going to love or care about me again. And I deserve it..... I did it all to myself.

So watch out for those manic episodes. Now I'm praying this darkweb SN is potent enough to end this lonely nightmare. I'm going to be homeless in a few months too, and I ruined my reputation in my field so I could never work again either, even if I wanted to. And my taxes are all fucked up. I'm praying this SN is good enough to ctb with.

I have no intention of reliving the year 2023, which was my last episode. I've never felt so worthless and isolated in my life. And if you need to talk, my inbox is always open.

 

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

Update: I made it through the night with an added dose of lithium and sleep. And cats.

May have to revamp my rotating work schedule. It's clearly not good for me.

Going on no hospital stays for six years.