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fireworkthepony
Fat Ugly Bastard but otherwise decently okay
- Nov 8, 2020
- 14
im CTB in the afternoon and need advice if it fails. ive got a shit ton of pills and im going to be slitting my wrists and neck, i dont care about pain, it doesnt matter. my issue here is if it fails. im 18, i live with my mom brother and her husband. she is insane, and makes me go crazy, but even worse is if she finds out i tried to kill myself. and worse then that is if i fail, and im forced to be confronted with her.
what do i do? she cant force me to do anything, right? i dont know im just paranoid to the idea of failing and her being her insane-mentally-unstable self and ruining my life further. she has caused me paranoia, she never lets me leave the house, and takes shit out on me. its hard to tell how she would react. she constantly tells me if i were to die, she would kill herself. and i dont care, i feel so empty, but if i dont fucking die shes going to be on my ass insanely so.
im rambling. just, do you guys have advice? if god hates me so much and makes me live, i just need some sort of thing to keep in mind on how to react to her crazy self.
what do i do? she cant force me to do anything, right? i dont know im just paranoid to the idea of failing and her being her insane-mentally-unstable self and ruining my life further. she has caused me paranoia, she never lets me leave the house, and takes shit out on me. its hard to tell how she would react. she constantly tells me if i were to die, she would kill herself. and i dont care, i feel so empty, but if i dont fucking die shes going to be on my ass insanely so.
im rambling. just, do you guys have advice? if god hates me so much and makes me live, i just need some sort of thing to keep in mind on how to react to her crazy self.