Though I do not share the same sentiment about choosing oneself over the other as it is not my principle, I do agree with you that this world is a social game. Good for you that you have friends that got your back. However, the last statement seems to be heartless though I do not know of your circumstances as to why it led to be like that, I hope that when its your turn to have that feelings, nobody will do that to you.
I agree that this world is a social game. Though no matter how heartless, ruthless, or any other rhetorics used to describe the rest, I will continue spreading kindness no matter how idealistic or unreal it may seem. That is the least I can do before CTB. Who knows, the act of kindness no matter how small would mean a lot to someone who is suffering and/or on the verge of CTB. Let's just say "paying it forward" for the afterlife, if there is one.
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I do not understand much on how one's existence can hurt others when we do not intend to do so but I do know we have the capability to hurt ourselves if we intend to. However, I agree that we should have the option to leave(CTB) based on the circumstances.
i exist, and i hurt others, not talking about humans only, i take in consideration all types of life, all beings. i have spent all my life damaging everything around me. the sole fact that i breath ,that feels like stealing oxygen. same with occupying a place, that feels like imposing my presence, i feel that my existing takes from the others, i only take even when i lay in bed 24/7 and i can't stop this unless i kill myself. another thing that hurts is even if your intention are good, that doesn't mean you're not hurting the other person. because most times you do something with the best intention but it turns out that has only hurt the person that you intented to help, maybe because you didn't know better before or simply because no one knows anyone.
Thank you for elaborating. I now understand better what you mean. I see, I feel the same way too. That is why I try my best to give so as to avoid causing pain to others. That is also one of the reason why I was delaying CTB was because I was saving up money so as not to burden my family financially. That means they dont have to spend anymore on burial as the expenses are prepared already. For intentions, I try to do good even if its not well received. I tried. Its the thought that counts. I can take that to my grave without guilt knowing that I only did good in my time here. As for the air, I exhale just as I breathe and excuse my language but I fart. That means I give out carbon dioxide, oxygen, nitrogen, and methane. Good for the trees and other greens. Equivalent exchange it is. ;) Apologies in making humor out of it. Just trying to make the mood light. What I really mean to say I feel you. And it might feel as though our presence might not have a visible purpose, it might be that we are just unaware of it. Still, we have a choice what to do with ourselves.
thanks to you for reading me. i really just hate this process in life: take. give.
I understand. Your experience must have been not good to you and no worries. No need to apologize. We may have different perspective but we agree on having the choice to CTB. I myself am tired. I have been a giver all my life as far as I know of. Yet I have been taken for granted and used, even my intentions were twisted by those who received it but I cannot help it even if I have assessed the possible outcomes as what I feel takes over practicality. That is my whole being but I am tired already. Yet I cannot stop it. Therefore my only choice is escape.
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I hope the OP will read the exchanges that happened here so they can see the different perspectives and decide which they can associate with. Hope the exchanges help you OP. :)
That's a good way of living. It's personally difficult for me to do that, but I respect that!
Hey, I just hope you realize that this attitude is a double-edged sword. Sefless people can be either very exploited or has a very supportive group of other selfless folks. It's about choosing and adapting your attitude with the crowd.
