Ardesevent
It’s the end of the line, cowboy
- Feb 2, 2020
- 358
My heart doesn't stop beating, my eyes don't stop starting around, and it always feels like someone is watching me, no matter where I am.
I started feeling like this a couple days ago, and I had to delay my CTB date because of it. I can't stand feeling like this all the time, and the fact that school is just around the corner isn't making me feel much better at all. I might end up CTBing out of desperation at this point, but I can't let it happen that way. Death is the one time I'm supposed to feel at peace, and it's the one thing I need to feel that way.
If I get absorbed into a tv show, I've found that it stops. But if I take a break to eat, it starts again. I've started binge-watching things to a unhealthy degree- no breaks, even to sleep. I watched a 24 episode show in only 1 and 1/2 days. I can't take much more of this.
I started feeling like this a couple days ago, and I had to delay my CTB date because of it. I can't stand feeling like this all the time, and the fact that school is just around the corner isn't making me feel much better at all. I might end up CTBing out of desperation at this point, but I can't let it happen that way. Death is the one time I'm supposed to feel at peace, and it's the one thing I need to feel that way.
If I get absorbed into a tv show, I've found that it stops. But if I take a break to eat, it starts again. I've started binge-watching things to a unhealthy degree- no breaks, even to sleep. I watched a 24 episode show in only 1 and 1/2 days. I can't take much more of this.