I'm choosing to live, for now.

[trianglesplayhouse]

Nearly did it today, would have attempted if it weren't for one of my family members unintentionally staying for another hour.

I still wish I went through with it but eh. Things are looking up a little. Reconnected with an old friend today and I will possibly get testosterone from someone which would be amazing if I can.

I want to create things. I love drawing, music and all that stuff. I wanna make video games or animations. But I don't have the energy or motivation, maybe now I have a little more motivation because of the testosterone.

Yeah. I'll be back on here in a couple months probably and regret not ending it. I still want to finish preparing for it in case I do it so everything is set in place when I'm in "the mood".

 

[Sherri]

I'm happy you decided to give life another go, that's what I do everyday of my life, treat each day like a new one. Some days I still feel down, but will still open the blind, if you are artsy that's even better. I used to love singing, now can't even score a proper note. All the best in this endeavour. Hugs

 

[timf]

You might not want to prepare too quick a trigger. You mentioned things looking a little better because of the unexpected delay you encountered. If you make things too easy and quick, you might allow circumstances to push you in a direction that would have passed as well.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm pleased for you that things seem to be improving. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[BurnBurnBurn]

Good to hear things are going well for you rn, I hope it stays that way and things keep looking up for you. And for the record I think it's very brave of you to stay. Living is tough, like REALLY tough so choosing to keep soldiering on is always commendable. Wishing you all the best!

 

[trianglesplayhouse]

Nevermind LOL