Venting I'm borderline invisible.

[citrusrope]

Man, people don't give a shit about me at all. I don't remember the last time anyone has ever really listened to me (not just the act of listening, but listening and caring for what I have to say and actively listening.)

Am I that worthless? Do I have nothing appealing enough about myself for people to actually want to listen to me? It feels like I'm talking by myself all the time. I wonder why I even try. A couple of people have remembered stuff about me and that felt nice but well, outside of that, I don't think anyone particularly likes me enough to care.

I can't blame them though, I think my depression and anxiety makes me fucking miserable to be around. And if I'm being real, I'M the one pushing people away because I keep retreating back into my stupid fucking depression pit.

Anyways. It sucks being invisible. In all honesty I feel like I'm worth the equivalent of maybe lint in someone's pocket. I hate that feeling like I'm talking to a wall. Not even an acknowledgement if not a full response for fucks sake! Hate it. I put in effort into what I say to add insult to injury. I should stop trying.

 

[Saponification]

I know the feeling too well. Shit makes you feel like an isolated, worthless piece of nothing.

Personally I don't even try anymore, I'm solely focused on planning my CTB.

 

[tartvinegar]

I feel the same way. Worthless, a failure, invisible.

 

[citrusrope]

I know the feeling too well. Shit makes you feel like an isolated, worthless piece of nothing.

Personally I don't even try anymore, I'm solely focused on planning my CTB.

I think I'm also slowly just coming to terms that this is how it'll be for me forever. Every single piece of advice I get is worthless because they all assume that someone does care when that's the furthest thing from the truth. That feeling of isolation is so shitty. I am also giving up on trying tbh.

 

[sanction]

"Invisible" is a word I been thinking about recently too

Basically many of us in society, are just invisible people living in the shadows, often overlooked and forgotten

This also gets worst as you age. The older you get, the more you are simply forgotten and ignored, left to struggle in the shadows completely on your own

It just seems like all your daily efforts and heart to survive, just seems completely meaningless, as nobody cares at all, nor does it even matter

Along with social media nowadays, a lot of the attention is now even directed towards people only with "followers" and "popularity", which further makes the already invisible people, feel even more invisible, feeling worthless and left behind in this big world

Just going through this long and worthless journey completely on our own, struggling in the background as we slowly fade away

 

[UnrulyNightmare]

You're not invisible here!
If you want someone to chat with or listen to you, dm me

And yeah depression makes it harder for sure.. Not a reason to make you feel abandoned though. A reason to try harder. Stupid ppl...

It's harsh when you put in a lot of effort, write a thoughtful message and then get ignored. I hear you