Story I'm being addmited. Documenting the experince

[Baltazar1713]

I'm being addmited to a ward to recieve ect. In preparation they gave me valium, I'm not sure what the quantity is.

I've written my plans for ctb using N on my wallpaper just in case for the mild memory losses accociated with ect.

The health care professionals here adopt a certain faith which looks down on suicide. So it's impossible for me to be labled as a person capable of making decisions if I keep admiring to my suicidal wishes (tho they come from a rational view of life)

I'll keep you posted on how things go. Ect was quite effective when I had it the first time but I remember wanting to get better. This time I'm just doing it so that my family sees that I've exhausted the options I have for recovery.

 

[MotherOfCats]

It's a really brave step to take, I don't have enough courage to give it a go. I wish you all the luck in the world.

 

[a.n.kirillov]

Just to clarify: you are doing this voluntarily, right? They are not electrocuting your brain by force?

 

[painoflife]

I hope it isn't too bad an experience for you and that you don't get bad side effects.

 

[Baltazar1713]

Just to clarify: you are doing this voluntarily, right? They are not electrocuting your brain by force?

Yeah I did before when I was seeking to get better. It actually feels good, the anesthesia admitted before the procedure feels amazing.

The side effects are minor memory loss that goes away in a while.

 

[a.n.kirillov]

Yeah I did before when I was seeking to get better. It actually feels good, the anesthesia admitted before the procedure feels amazing.

The side effects are minor memory loss that goes away in a while.

Okay. I couldn't imagine doing that.

Good to hear about the anesthesia, since this is how I am going to die. Are you under full anaesthesia? Unconscious?