The last time I was here, I posted in a goodbye thread that I made about how I was doing better and didn't feel like I needed sasu anymore. Well unfortunately, after a few months of feeling better this is no longer the case. I don't have any methods or plans but the things that once made life worth living for me just barely make it tolerable now. I've been having serious money problems that aren't even my fault and I don't know what to do. I work for a new employer but they keep sending me bad checks over and over and I'm considering looking for a new job. Only problem is, if I do that, I will have to take a huge pay cut and will probably end up hating the new job anyway.
As far as I'm concerned, work is just another form of slavery anyway. Doesn't matter to me that you get paid because you're still a slave to money and you're still a slave to paying bills endlessly until you die. Some people get angry at people like me, especially people who want work but can't get it, but it's not my fault some people enjoy being slaves.
I haven't even filed my taxes in 2 years and I've been thinking about trying to end my life when tax time comes around again. This life is more bullshit than it's worth and meds and therapy will never change that. I'm tired of having to cope with a life that was cruelly imposed on me in the first place when I have no guarantee that my end will be peaceful or under my control. Doesn't help that the majority of people think they have some duty to force people like me to stay alive, even when we don't want to. It makes me sick.
Anyway, now that I'm done venting I'm glad to be back. Coming back to sasu after so long, I feel like I'm coming back home after a long vacation. It was a fun vacation in the beginning, but after a while it just became another form of misery and I had to come back, just like I suspected I would.
As far as I'm concerned, work is just another form of slavery anyway. Doesn't matter to me that you get paid because you're still a slave to money and you're still a slave to paying bills endlessly until you die. Some people get angry at people like me, especially people who want work but can't get it, but it's not my fault some people enjoy being slaves.
I haven't even filed my taxes in 2 years and I've been thinking about trying to end my life when tax time comes around again. This life is more bullshit than it's worth and meds and therapy will never change that. I'm tired of having to cope with a life that was cruelly imposed on me in the first place when I have no guarantee that my end will be peaceful or under my control. Doesn't help that the majority of people think they have some duty to force people like me to stay alive, even when we don't want to. It makes me sick.
Anyway, now that I'm done venting I'm glad to be back. Coming back to sasu after so long, I feel like I'm coming back home after a long vacation. It was a fun vacation in the beginning, but after a while it just became another form of misery and I had to come back, just like I suspected I would.
