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edensend

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Jul 24, 2024
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I'm gonna try to hang myself on my door one last time and if that doesn't work i'm ordering a gun. I'm 18 and a palliative patient, I wanted to go peacefully but I can't find a way to. I hate how alone I am. I don't think anyone will care that i'm gone, they'll just be glad they don't have to take care of me anymore, not that they really do. I'm so tired, i've been abused and neglected my whole life, but it's been worse since i've gotten sick. I'm so ready to be gone. Goodbye beautiful people, I hope things improve for you.
 
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maniac116

maniac116

My own worst enemy🌹💔
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I'm so sorry you feel like checking out. I hope you really think your CTB through first, as people who try on impulse or while frustrated fail often.
No judgement. Whatever your choice I hope you find peace & love.
No shame in waiting either 🌹💔
 
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I'm gonna try to hang myself on my door one last time and if that doesn't work i'm ordering a gun. I'm 18 and a palliative patient, I wanted to go peacefully but I can't find a way to. I hate how alone I am. I don't think anyone will care that i'm gone, they'll just be glad they don't have to take care of me anymore, not that they really do. I'm so tired, i've been abused and neglected my whole life, but it's been worse since i've gotten sick. I'm so ready to be gone. Goodbye beautiful people, I hope things improve for you.
I'm so sorry that you're a palliative pt at this young age. We all have different type of pain in here. I'm sorry that on the top of that you were abused and neglected. This is not fair. I hate seeing a teenager struggling like that it hurts my heart. I wish you the best.
 
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Jul 24, 2024
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I'm so sorry you feel like checking out. I hope you really think your CTB through first, as people who try on impulse or while frustrated fail often.
No judgement. Whatever your choice I hope you find peace & love.
No shame in waiting either 🌹💔
what's ctb? I'm desperate to go, I don't think I can wait anymore
I'm so sorry that you're a palliative pt at this young age. We all have different type of pain in here. I'm sorry that on the top of that you were abused and neglected. This is not fair. I hate seeing a teenager struggling like that it hurts my heart. I wish you the best.
ty for your kindness🩷 i'm hoping things are better on the other side
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

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Sep 24, 2020
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I hope you find peace from the suffering, existence really is too cruel, I wish you the best.
 
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locked*n*loaded

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what's ctb? I'm desperate to go, I don't think I can wait anymore
CTB is what you're planning on doing - Catching The Bus - a euphemism for suicide.

May I ask why you're choosing partial hanging? It's one of the more difficult methods to succeed at.
 
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edensend

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CTB is what you're planning on doing - Catching The Bus - a euphemism for suicide.

May I ask why you're choosing partial hanging? It's one of the more difficult methods to succeed at.
I have no other options really, i'm desperate
 
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Davey40210

Davey40210

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Sep 3, 2024
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Good luck in whatever choice you make.
 
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piccola anima

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Hello, i'm new. I hope you will find your peace♥️
 
Noct

Noct

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Sep 1, 2024
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they'll just be glad they don't have to take care of me anymore, not that they really do. i've been abused and neglected my whole life, but it's been worse since i've gotten sick.
Sounds absolutely horrid , I'm so sporty you've gone through all that. I can understand your need to leave. Hope you find peace and something better one way or another
 

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