I need peace
The past is never dead, it's not even past.
- Mar 28, 2022
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Since I was like 12/13 I always feel like my time is ending so I don't care much about anything, and I'm always making bad decisions because of that, I'm at a point where I feel like I have no other choice but to ctb because of all the stupid shit I've made of my life assuming I'd have the courage to ctb sooner. I'm just venting because SS is the only place I feel safe to say what I feel at the moment, I just feel so trapped in life and out of it at the same time, it's all so complex, I've never gave anything much thought, now I overthink everything, I just wish I'd stop thinking, I just wish I'd have peace, I don't know what I mean by that, I don't know if my choice is to ctb, but I know I don't feel at peace with my life and I probably never will, I'm sobbing right now for how wrong everything has gotten, I'm so stupid