I'm afraid

[helpmehelpme]

that I am spending too much time on this site lately and not focused on recovery.

I am so caught up in my brokeness that I am missing the whole picture.

I almost feel ashamed.

Tomorrow I will make a positive step to heal.

 

[brokerofsecrets]

It's great that you have the will to move forward and that you're in the position where you can do that. Super proud of you for taking the first step. best of luck to you in your recovery :)

 

[mesohappy]

Good luck to you on your path..I hope you find what you are seeking.

 

[Sensei]

That's so good to hear! I wish you all the luck in your pursuit of recovery! :)

 

[helpmehelpme]

Hard as hell to force myself to swim when my mental chatter is "I want to die." But I did it. Now back to do work. Thank you and bless you, all. With love, me

 

[helpmehelpme]

Writing haiku helps
Yes, it does - 5, 7, 5
Can't hurt if it helps

 

[helpmehelpme]

Going to sleep with "hate myself, want to die" does not help. But when I think of the divorce I initiated, and the loving wife and dog I left, it's all I can think. So I take a hefty dose of seroquel and hope to escape the persistent thoughts that plague me. Thanks, all, for being there. Don't know how successful I was today in healing or spending less time on the site ... Tomorrow another day.