I’m afraid from the future

[Malan2003]

I'm so afraid and anxious about the future. I can't tell my parents I don't believe in god anymore. They will kill me. To pretend is very overwhelming. I'm so confused. Maybe there is god I just don't believe like they do. If God exists why people suffers with mental illness? The problem is I can't kill my self. I'm too scared to do it so I'm living this nonsense and act until I build the courage to CTB or accept their believes and move on.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also fear what lies ahead in this cruel existence, I certainly understand that it's so dreadful and tiring feeling trapped here. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[Malan2003]

I also fear what lies ahead in this cruel existence, I certainly understand that it's so dreadful and tiring feeling trapped here. But anyway I wish you the best.

Thank you