Venting Im absolutley terrified I wont stop fearing people

[okkkk]

Ive been alone for too long and I cant fucking take it anymore. Im so fucking alone. Every day is the same. I look back on my life and Its so pathetic. Nothing I do is worthy of being remembered. I CAAAANT TAKKKEE IIITTTT. Its been like this since the end of highschool. Im a complete pariah. Im alone and theres nothing I can do. Im so fucking desparate for anyone else to be in my life. Why is it so hard??? What a pathetic reason to want to ctb.

 

[Iwantoutrightnow]

It's not pathetic, it's how you feel. I'm alone too so I understand what you mean. I haven't left my flat for ages, I'm too scared to go out and nobody ever comes to see me.

Not sure what else to say, just wanted you to know you're not alone

 

[Dreamcolleger]

Don't feel bad about it, loads of us are willingly isolating ourselves to help CTB.

 

[pole]

Ive been alone for too long and I cant fucking take it anymore. Im so fucking alone. Every day is the same. I look back on my life and Its so pathetic. Nothing I do is worthy of being remembered. I CAAAANT TAKKKEE IIITTTT. Its been like this since the end of highschool. Im a complete pariah. Im alone and theres nothing I can do. Im so fucking desparate for anyone else to be in my life. Why is it so hard??? What a pathetic reason to want to ctb.

i can relate. highschool and what not is kewl, but college/uni, anyones vulnerable to resorting to isolation. The learning environments are different, bigger classes, its just harder to make relationships. But it definitely isnt a pathetic reason to ctb. someone alone in the world is a terrible thing, it fucks with you and completely ruins you and most of the time will drive you insane. but there are ways to fight this, i got better by forcing myself out of my comfort zone to be around people and being in social interactions by getting a retail job. I guess im a lonely extrovert.

 

[okkkk]

i can relate. highschool and what not is kewl, but college/uni, anyones vulnerable to resorting to isolation. The learning environments are different, bigger classes, its just harder to make relationships. But it definitely isnt a pathetic reason to ctb. someone alone in the world is a terrible thing, it fucks with you and completely ruins you and most of the time will drive you insane. but there are ways to fight this, i got better by forcing myself out of my comfort zone to be around people and being in social interactions by getting a retail job. I guess im a lonely extrovert.

Yeah ive thought that just forcing myself to be around people would help. I just applied to starbucks.
Im still afraid of being the quiet wierd guy at work tho. Im gonna have to take a shot every day just to make sure that doesnt happen, cuz im pretty sure my default is just ruminating about how not ideal my life is and how fucking lonley I am.

 

[pole]

Yeah ive thought that just forcing myself to be around people would help. I just applied to starbucks.
Im still afraid of being the quiet wierd guy at work tho. Im gonna have to take a shot every day just to make sure that doesnt happen, cuz im pretty sure my default is just ruminating about how not ideal my life is and how fucking lonley I am.

trust me its gonna help A TON. I forced myself to do the same thing and worked at footlocker for a while. helped cause everyone was my age and it felt it was just me chilling with friends and having a great time, it was more than just a job especially downtown, meeting amazing and just cool ass people and customers. retail helps a ton. starbucks is definitely gonna help, and other places that you choose to look at, its gonna force you out of your comfort zone. Days where you feel lonely and dont wanna do anything, you wont feel cause ull be forced to work. i wouldve worked at my job for free at times, it just made me feel different from when i was at home alone. work was like an escape for me and i didnt feel like i was in my head alone.

its gonna help a ton for you. goodluck with it.

 

[Going Home]

Ive been alone for too long and I cant fucking take it anymore. Im so fucking alone. Every day is the same. I look back on my life and Its so pathetic. Nothing I do is worthy of being remembered. I CAAAANT TAKKKEE IIITTTT. Its been like this since the end of highschool. Im a complete pariah. Im alone and theres nothing I can do. Im so fucking desparate for anyone else to be in my life. Why is it so hard??? What a pathetic reason to want to ctb.

I can relate.