Venting im a waste of space

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I literally don't know what I want to do with my life from here on out - I don't like doing anything and I don't feel motivated to keep going. I've tried several meds for ADD/MDD and none of them have solved this problem. I just don't really know what I'm doing sticking around. I'm so over the monotony and pain of every day. I'm very ready to call it quits. Cutting myself is the only thing that makes me feel something anymore

 

[ropeburns&migranes]

I can relate to this as well. Although my form of self-harm is different it's the only thing that stops the numbness. Maybe one day this will be all over one way or another