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evilnkaa
Till' Death Was Never Enough
- Jun 24, 2024
- 9
I'm filled with so many emotions. I hate myself. No amount of effort I put I feel not good enough. I feel like I'm living for other people but not for myself. I make friends but I don't feel loved. I start talking to guys but I don't feel the same love anymore. I'm destroyed. I cry about everything and anything... I would always try to say I'm sensitive. But I don't think it's because I'm sensitive. I'm so lost. I feel like theres no purpose and I'm counting days like sheep. I want to just breathe. I can't breathe and my head is filled with so many feelings and thoughts and I wish I could get a moment to stop them all so all I get is radio silence. I can't look at myself or even remotely love me as a person. I hate how I depend on others. I hate my voice, body, the way I stutter and talk, I hate how my face looks, & I hate how I try to improve but I see no progress. I feel like the biggest loser. I hurt everyone around me and push them all away. I don't know what to do aside from ctb. I'm so unsatisfied with life. I'm running out of options.