Instead of wishing you "happy birthday", I will say "condolences". Typically, your 20s are the most important decade, it lays the foundation for your life (social and romantic relationships, how you adapt to the world and the people around you) and for it to be wasted in isolation because of things out of your control can have seriously devastating effects. A lifelong scar. I think this is a great reason for suicide. It's why I'm CTB. I turn 26 in a couple of weeks and I predict that I will become more active in planning my death, I have an idea for a cocktail, but it's not well-written yet. I've been too depressed to do anything for the past few months, so much so I have been tired and desensitized to my emotions, but as I get closer to my birthday, that feeling is starting to turn into regret and despair that I can feel. Wasting my relative youth without meaningful experiences I can hold on to forever has always been a fear of mine, and it has come to fruition. Amazing suicide motivation, and I hope to capitalize on it soon. I am sorry you have gone through it too.
