If you’re planning on ctb soon when is your date?

[PoisonedJuliet]

I want to know because I just like to keep you guys in my thoughts on that day and to prepare everyone on this forum for your planned departure. please by any means don't type an answer if you feel like if you say your ctb date and end up not going through with it on that day you will be a coward. Replying here does not make it "official" or some bullshit. Know you don't have to go through with it if you aren't ready

 

[Deathbydemo]

I'm really leaning towards February 29th. Buying SN on Monday, so really it's whenever I can get everything sorted out and that arrives.

 

[Melkus2020]

week of 23rd to the 29th. Definitely dying over night.

 

[Valdi]

I am hoping to tomorrow. Have Sn and all the drugs. Just chickened out of an attempt tonight. It was all becoming too real and had a terrible headache which would just worsen with SN. Plus was starving after my fast! I've not talked to anyone on here before but it looks like a great community of people.

 

[the_inbetween]

March 31th, but is bound to change.

 

[justfloating]

I haven't got one yet because it is dependant on another person but I hope its not too long

 

[Indieblue]

Next month, i hope, if it goes to plan.

 

[ryla2090]

As soon as I get my hands on SN.

 

[a.n.kirillov]

are you entering us into your calender? haha. I don't know yet depends on a few external circumstances but let's say somewhere around March 15 probably

 

[lizinha]

March 100% if my situation doesn't improve. tired of being in this continous depressive state

 

[faust]

June, 2020. Depends on tickets to Mex, when I get N, if I get N, if I travel to Bolivia for N, if I mess up with N and try SN, if SN won't be found and I have to jump. Date is flexible for sure.

 

[LMLN]

July or August 2020 if I can hold off. No specific date.

 

[Anon2662]

I like the idea of Feb 29th so that it only comes around every 4 years for my family.. but I won't have everything ready by then :(

 

[Melkus2020]

I like the idea of Feb 29th so that it only comes around every 4 years for my family.. but I won't have everything ready by then :(

That sounds like an awesome idea and makes the anniversary of death less painful. I hope my things comes in before Feb 27.

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

are you entering us into your calender? haha.

No I'm not a creep lol. I just wanted to know so I can keep you guys in my thoughts. Plus it prepares me to see another member leave which is always sad but I really do just want you all to find peace. No one deserves the pain we have all been through.

 

[AlreadyGone]

Not sure yet. Would like for it to be sometime in April.

 

[to_rid_the_disease]

Next Monday

I am hoping to tomorrow. Have Sn and all the drugs. Just chickened out of an attempt tonight. It was all becoming too real and had a terrible headache which would just worsen with SN. Plus was starving after my fast! I've not talked to anyone on here before but it looks like a great community of people.

The fast is the main thing I'm dreading lol. I love my food and get pretty damn hangry.

 

[TAW122]

I don't have a date, but likely late in 2020, or the 2nd half of this year. Also, it depends on the circumstances, time and place, opportunity as well because I want to be sure that the coast is clear and be 100% ready, fully prepared before I attempt.

 

[BPD Barbie]

Mine was the 20th of January 2020, but now who knows if I will even set another date.

 

[Despondent]

I don't have one yet, but I'm rooting for May 02.

08/20/2001 - 05/02/2020

 

[ComingClose]

I'm planning to be gone before summer gets here (UK though so summer comes when/if it chooses!)

 

[highlyvolatile]

I'm gonna try later on this week.

 

[selfhater]

it's 8 march but things going worse that i might do it tomorrow

 

[h3atd3ath]

I almost CTB when I got laid off and I couldn't find a new job for almost a year. So I guess if that ever happens again and I can't find a new job quickly, hopefully I'll have some N ready to go.

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

I'm gonna try later on this week.

What's your method? I'm sorry life has given you shit to push you to this point. I'm here if you ever need to talk and I'm giving your hand a big squeeze. Lots of love

it's 8 march but things going worse that i might do it tomorrow

We're here if you need to talk about how you're feeling

 

[Proto]

My journey isn't quite over yet but as soon as i have found a method and have 100% certainty which i'm close to with my nitrogen scuba setup it will be probably this year.

 

[MachinaArcana]

In a few hours.

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

In a few hours.

Need to talk? I hope you are 100% certain in your decision and I hope you find the peace you deserve. Im sending lots of love and strength your way

 

[MachinaArcana]

Need to talk? I hope you are 100% certain in your decision and I hope you find the peace you deserve. Im sending lots of love and strength your way

Thank you, appreciated. It is twenty past midnight where I am (Begium) and, as dumb as it may sound, over the next few hours I will be cleaning the appartment. I have a lot to do, preparing the full suspension setup, sedation, and so on. I'll be setting up delayed e-mail messages to be sent out in the morning around 6 AM, a.o. to my brother, to inform the authorities. Keys to the appartment are out on the terrace. There's a binder next to me with lots of useful information which will facillitate "cleaning up the mess". Well, proverbially speaking, because I'm really trying *not* to leave a mess behind. Most of the cupboards are empty already. All the clothes went to welfare. There's even a bag with clothes c/o the undertaker. It's going to be fairly easy to "dispose" of me, I believe. I' m not leaving behind many traces. Yesterday (saturday) I mailed parcels and letters to loved ones and friends, they will arrive tomorrow morning.

This is the point of no return, so to speak. I'm glad I have finally arrived.

Thanks again for your kindness.