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Cute_&_Loving

I like trinkets:)
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Not joking…..
 
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ThatGuyOverThere

ThatGuyOverThere

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If Only it was that easy. Though You'd have to hope their not a sadistic one.
 
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Cute_&_Loving

I like trinkets:)
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If Only it was that easy. Though You'd have to hope they're not a sadistic one.
I know… I know…….
sadistic or not, I don't even care anymore.
Can't blame a girt for trying…..
 
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The only slaying I do is when I get dressed.
 
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EvisceratedJester

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|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
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If Only it was that easy. Though You'd have to hope their not a sadistic one.
I mean, there was that one dude who attacked a bunch of people at a mosque and that other dude who who lured two members from here by using the partner thread and attempted to murder them. Your chances are low but they're still there and I feel like that's not a good thing...


 
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Cute_&_Loving

I like trinkets:)
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Извини

Slay means look good (слэнг)
Appreciate it:) haven't been familiar with that one:)
I mean, there was that one dude who attacked a bunch of people at a mosque and that other dude who who lured two members from here by using the partner thread and attempted to murder them. Your chances are low but they're still there and I feel like that's not a good thing...


Oh yeah. I think I've heard about that one associated with SS…. Poor girls…

I know they're low…. But subconscious is a power thing! Who knows? Worth exhausting every single possibility….. 🫂
 
ThatGuyOverThere

ThatGuyOverThere

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I mean, there was that one dude who attacked a bunch of people at a mosque and that other dude who who lured two members from here by using the partner thread and attempted to murder them. Your chances are low but they're still there and I feel like that's not a good thing...


True, I would much prefer my own death be an action that I take, But I guess there's that level of taking control out of your own hand, that gives some people a weird sense of comfort, as I imagine is the case for OP.
 
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TheBroken

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What Really Matters Anymore?
Feb 13, 2022
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Just go to a bad part of town in a major US city (Detroit, Chicago, L.A., San Francisco, Houston, NEW ORLEANS) and start insulting some local gangsta people and they'll help you out fairly fast. Especially if you're white-ish ....
 
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EvisceratedJester

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True, I would much prefer my own death be an action that I take, But I guess there's that level of taking control out of your own hand, that gives some people a weird sense of comfort, as I imagine is the case for OP.
I understand wishing that someone would just kill you instead as I sometimes also wish that someone would come and murder me. You don't have to worry about your family blaming themselves for your death, you don't have to feel any guilt for your actions traumatizing them, and, as you said, it can be comforting having someone else take control of the situation. For me, sometimes I find that this desire also partly stems from my self-hatred.

Still, it's probably preferable to just ctb rather than have someone murder you. Having someone attempt to murder you is terrifying and you have no clue as to how long they'll drag things out before finally putting you out of your misery. Let alone do you know what they might plan to do to you before or after you die.
 
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RoadBLOCK

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I think it is (DARK WEB REQUEST)!
 
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Davey40210

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Even the stars make room for new stars
Sep 3, 2024
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I would also want that.. a benevolent murderer to help me out of my misery quickly.
 
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ijustwishtodie

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death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
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Come and get me too. I want to be murdered as well
 
Just_Another_Person

Just_Another_Person

Experienced
Sep 16, 2024
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I thought about that many times but I don't have any idea on how to find a mercenary and "pissing off bad people" could go very wrong. What they would do before, during ("painful things") and maybe not even killing me but letting me barely alive and almost non-functional.

I think what you want is an Angel of Mercy ( https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Angel_of_mercy_(criminology) ), but finding one, specially a "gentle" one, should be basically impossible.
 
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I like trinkets:)
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I thought about that many times but I don't have any idea on how to find a mercenary and "pissing off bad people" could go very wrong. What they would do before, during ("painful things") and maybe not even killing me but letting me barely alive and almost non-functional.

I think what you want is a Angel of Mercy ( https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Angel_of_mercy_(criminology) ), but finding one, specially a "gentle" one, should be basically impossible.
Yeah I think I personally didn't deserve it…. Anything good requires hard work and needs to be deserved…. I'm afraid we're all stuck in a situation where we'd have to take matters into our own hands……
 
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Yeah I think I personally didn't deserve it…. Anything good requires hard work and needs to be deserved…. I'm afraid we're all stuck in a situation where we'd have to take matters into our own hands……

Won't comment if you deserve death or not because it is not my place, but I do believe people deserve a peaceful death. Doesn't matter if you are a horrible person or a good one, in your last moments you do not deserve suffering, please keep that in mind. I hope you have a peaceful death, either by ctb (if you choose it) or 40 years from now from natural causes.
 
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Cute_&_Loving

I like trinkets:)
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Won't comment if you deserve death or not because it is not my place, but I do believe people deserve a peaceful death. Doesn't matter if you are a horrible person or a good one, in your last moments you do not deserve suffering, please keep that in mind. I hope you have a peaceful death, either by ctb (if you choose it) or 40 years from now from natural causes.
I didn't mean it that all of us don't deserve it. Just me. Cuz I've never been a hard working person and always been too selfish and such.
Regarding bad people who didn't even tried and make amends or something, I'd respectfully disagree that they deserve an easy way out. But we're all entitled to have our own opinions, and thank you for yours! 🫂
 
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Sep 16, 2024
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I didn't mean it that all of us don't deserve it. Just me. Cuz I've never been a hard working person and always been too selfish and such.
Regarding bad people who didn't even tried and make amends or something, I'd respectfully disagree that they deserve an easy way out. But we're all entitled to have our own opinions, and thank you for yours! 🫂
I understood you meant yourself, but I still think you deserve a peaceful goodbye. And ofc, everyone has different opinions,I won't pressure you. And no need to thanking me, I'm just babbling around 😅
 
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I like trinkets:)
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I understood you meant yourself, but I still think you deserve a peaceful goodbye. And ofc, everyone has different opinions,I won't pressure you. And no need to thanking me, I'm just babbling around 😅
Thanks:))
I'm just trying to be courteous and respectful and understanding:) want to try to be nice cuz I'd want the same thing from others:)
 
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Just_Another_Person

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Thanks:))
I'm just trying to be courteous and respectful and understanding:) want to try to be nice cuz I'd want the same thing from others:)
Same, I'm generally a bitch but I try to be nice to nice people ✨
 
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Cute_&_Loving

I like trinkets:)
May 10, 2023
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Same, I'm generally a bitch but I try to be nice to nice people ✨
Awwww. That's so nice of you!! I've been trying to be better too….. I haven't been in the past…. And I'm afraid occasionally still not…. But I don't want to die an old cranky mean too selfish bitch:)
💖💖💛💛💚💚
 
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Just_Another_Person

Just_Another_Person

Experienced
Sep 16, 2024
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I know it is a cliché phrase, but you can't what you did in the past but you can change what you are doing in the present. Now I'm gonna leave the topic so maybe a serial killer really shows up and help you 😂
 
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Fangarina

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Sep 9, 2024
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I feel robbed. As someone from Glasgow, I'd have volunteered happily for the murder aspect of this. Take me oot! Please 😭
 
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Just_Another_Person

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@Cute_&_Loving Sorry for asking here but is everything ok?
 
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I thought about that many times but I don't have any idea on how to find a mercenary and "pissing off bad people" could go very wrong. What they would do before, during ("painful things") and maybe not even killing me but letting me barely alive and almost non-functional.

I think what you want is an Angel of Mercy ( https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Angel_of_mercy_(criminology) ), but finding one, specially a "gentle" one, should be basically impossible.
If you imagine yourself in the role of a CTB assistant, you'll face with symmetric trust issues towards the person you're going to help. Many people here just seek for attention and have no serious intentions to end their lives. A princess who makes posts about waiting for a prince on a white horse coming to her and kindly offering nembutal or fent doesn't really look like someone seriously planning her death.
 

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