If you knew for definite what happens after death would your decision to CTB be made easier?
Whether that be heaven/hell, reincarnation or nothingness.
For me it's the unknown that scares me what if it's worse than my current life.
Of course. The unknown has always frightened humans. At the same time, the humans who ultimately succeeded were the ones who went off into the dark, leaving the relative safety and known of the caves.
Whatever is on the other side, it will be a journey. An adventure, of a sort. If there is something else on the other side, and consciousness persists, well wouldn't that be amazing?
I say that, but I am no less afraid of the unknown, ha.
I don't know if it'd be enough to give me the final push, but it would certainly make it an easier decision to make. I was raised a Christian and can't really shake the teaching that if you ctb, it's straight to hell for you, no matter what. Not so interested in replacing my finite suffering with eternal suffering.
I get that. I was also raised Christian, but there's nothing in the bible--at least according to GPT and some cursory googling--that outright forbids ctb. It's never stated to be an outright sin. Not to mention God himself ordered an entire ethnic cleansing of Canaan and to not leave any women, children, or even animals alive. Not sure Judaeo-Christian God is necessarily caring too much about a lot of humans, regardless of what they do. The O.G. in the Old Testament didn't give AF. Not to mention what he did to poor Job, just to prove a point to the devil.
And if it is through Jesus that all sins are forgiven, well, if suicide is a sin--which the bible doesn't mention--then it is forgiven if you are a believer. Or in Baptist theology, if you have accepted Jesus into your heart and all that. And if you are a believer, you could just ask God and listen to what comes to you in like a meditative state. Whether or not you are or are not a believer, you can still listen to your own subconscious fears come to the surface of your mind through meditation.That could help you work through the fears--or realize you can't. Either way, good info. Might take a good 10-15 minutes of peaceful sitting without doing anything though. Or more and consistently. Or asking your subconscious before you go to bed to speak to you in your dreams (legit scientific shit/lucid dreaming and such).