I am very much anti-drugs. I have some stances which are not that popular in this forum.
Though my mental state is quite extreme and I need to take benzos and Z-medication (addictive sleeping pills) to alleviate my manic/psychotic symptoms.
I think I take them too often. It starts to become dangerous. I am on both at the lowest dosage but I think soon I will probably build a tolerance. Yeah I have to reduce college courses which breaks my heart though. I have to isolate me from other people in order not to get manic. This is another reason why I won't find a gf.
But this is all off-topic. I would advice everyone not to try psychedelics or other hardcore drugs. I really think they are dangerous. But I just experience when I take these benzos/ z-medication that taking them can be really seductive. It feels pretty good to take manic lorazepam. It was one of the greatest feelings I ever had. But it was prescribed and adviced by a psychiatrist.
If I could use a drug without building a tolerance/addiction I would probably take benzos. I have often really much anxiety and damn benzos can make me as if I was in the clouds flying. Nothing could hurt me and all my sorrows could be forgotten.
Though there is a very big warning on benzos. They are dangerous as hell. They are extremely addictive. And the withdrawal much be extreme torture lets ask Jordan Peterson. I think if I was benzo addict I had to kill myself. My mind is extremely fragile. I think a benzo withdrawal would trigger multiple psychosis and maybe even a mania.
I don't want to imagine the combination of my psychosomatic pain caused by bipolar with the agitiation caused by benzo withdrawal. I just wished there were sorts of these medication which were not addictive.
I primarily had interest in downers. But I am just dependent on downers. Antipsychotics are kind of downers (I might think). I am not sure whether tricylclic antidepressants count as downers or uppers. Maybe both. But I take them on an advice of a psychiatrist. I never took these drugs without them being prescribed.
I have no interest in other drugs. I never smoked cigarettes, never smoked weed and never intentionally drunk alcohol. I think the danger of weed is quite underestimated. A drug user girl in clinic once told me that I might should try some weed to relax. I was aware that this advice is fully bullshit. I have the genetical component for psychosis. If I smoked weed I would get a psychotic episode.
I am aslo aboslutely not interested in psychedlics: Some bad trips sound fucking horrible. Really nightmarish shit.
Oh but I would be curious of the effect of Xanax on me. I am not sure what the defintion of being high is. Intially I thought this only counts for weed. But I think also benzo can make people high.
I could imagine being high feels similar to being manic. I have an ambivalent feeling on being manic. I dislike the lack of control of your own actions.
Though my mental state is quite extreme and I need to take benzos and Z-medication (addictive sleeping pills) to alleviate my manic/psychotic symptoms.
I think I take them too often. It starts to become dangerous. I am on both at the lowest dosage but I think soon I will probably build a tolerance. Yeah I have to reduce college courses which breaks my heart though. I have to isolate me from other people in order not to get manic. This is another reason why I won't find a gf.
But this is all off-topic. I would advice everyone not to try psychedelics or other hardcore drugs. I really think they are dangerous. But I just experience when I take these benzos/ z-medication that taking them can be really seductive. It feels pretty good to take manic lorazepam. It was one of the greatest feelings I ever had. But it was prescribed and adviced by a psychiatrist.
If I could use a drug without building a tolerance/addiction I would probably take benzos. I have often really much anxiety and damn benzos can make me as if I was in the clouds flying. Nothing could hurt me and all my sorrows could be forgotten.
Though there is a very big warning on benzos. They are dangerous as hell. They are extremely addictive. And the withdrawal much be extreme torture lets ask Jordan Peterson. I think if I was benzo addict I had to kill myself. My mind is extremely fragile. I think a benzo withdrawal would trigger multiple psychosis and maybe even a mania.
I don't want to imagine the combination of my psychosomatic pain caused by bipolar with the agitiation caused by benzo withdrawal. I just wished there were sorts of these medication which were not addictive.
I primarily had interest in downers. But I am just dependent on downers. Antipsychotics are kind of downers (I might think). I am not sure whether tricylclic antidepressants count as downers or uppers. Maybe both. But I take them on an advice of a psychiatrist. I never took these drugs without them being prescribed.
I have no interest in other drugs. I never smoked cigarettes, never smoked weed and never intentionally drunk alcohol. I think the danger of weed is quite underestimated. A drug user girl in clinic once told me that I might should try some weed to relax. I was aware that this advice is fully bullshit. I have the genetical component for psychosis. If I smoked weed I would get a psychotic episode.
I am aslo aboslutely not interested in psychedlics: Some bad trips sound fucking horrible. Really nightmarish shit.
Oh but I would be curious of the effect of Xanax on me. I am not sure what the defintion of being high is. Intially I thought this only counts for weed. But I think also benzo can make people high.
I could imagine being high feels similar to being manic. I have an ambivalent feeling on being manic. I dislike the lack of control of your own actions.
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