brokenbutterflies
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- Jul 1, 2022
- 22
If you could relive any moment of your life, no matter how big or small, what would it be?
I spend a lot of my time wishing I could rewind time or freeze it for a second so I could experience a moment again. Some are more minor things, like staying up all night because I couldn't put a book down. Having a new book idea and spamming out 10k words in one sitting because I'm so excited by my new world and characters (I always wanted to be an author someday). Playing my favourite games (the walking dead game, the wolf among us, detroit become human, the last of us, heavy rain, to name a few, for those interested) for the first time and having the excitement of not knowing what comes next. Some are more monumental memories, like the time I held my little brother for the first time.
I've always hated hospitals and felt so anxious going into the room, so scared something would go horribly wrong, but the second I saw him, it's like everything else just disappeared. I remember holding him and being so scared of hurting him, he was so little. The first thing I did was smell him, which sounds weird but I had heard babies have a smell - they do! Soft, like baby powder and milk. I remember how warm he felt in my arms, and I remember thinking about how even though he was so small, I was surprised by the weight of him. I remember putting my finger in his palm and marvelling at how tiny his fingers were and how tightly he curled his hand into a fist around my finger. I wish I could relive that moment now, before we found out he was severely disabled and would never be able to talk or walk properly, or do a lot of things other kids can do. Don't get me wrong, I adore my brother still to this day, but in that moment I had a lot of plans for him that I had to eventually let go of, I remember instantly plotting a long list of books I'd make sure he read as he grew up, I hypothesised games we would play and trips we'd go on together. None of these things could happen due to his disabilities but in that moment, there were so many possibilities.
I spend a lot of my time wishing I could rewind time or freeze it for a second so I could experience a moment again. Some are more minor things, like staying up all night because I couldn't put a book down. Having a new book idea and spamming out 10k words in one sitting because I'm so excited by my new world and characters (I always wanted to be an author someday). Playing my favourite games (the walking dead game, the wolf among us, detroit become human, the last of us, heavy rain, to name a few, for those interested) for the first time and having the excitement of not knowing what comes next. Some are more monumental memories, like the time I held my little brother for the first time.
I've always hated hospitals and felt so anxious going into the room, so scared something would go horribly wrong, but the second I saw him, it's like everything else just disappeared. I remember holding him and being so scared of hurting him, he was so little. The first thing I did was smell him, which sounds weird but I had heard babies have a smell - they do! Soft, like baby powder and milk. I remember how warm he felt in my arms, and I remember thinking about how even though he was so small, I was surprised by the weight of him. I remember putting my finger in his palm and marvelling at how tiny his fingers were and how tightly he curled his hand into a fist around my finger. I wish I could relive that moment now, before we found out he was severely disabled and would never be able to talk or walk properly, or do a lot of things other kids can do. Don't get me wrong, I adore my brother still to this day, but in that moment I had a lot of plans for him that I had to eventually let go of, I remember instantly plotting a long list of books I'd make sure he read as he grew up, I hypothesised games we would play and trips we'd go on together. None of these things could happen due to his disabilities but in that moment, there were so many possibilities.
