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depressionAddict
Always empty, always lonely
- Sep 5, 2024
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I've attempted to CTB 2 times this year. Because of it, I spent a total of 4 weeks at the psych ward and 2.5 months at rehab. Nothing helped. Right now, my life is in phase that's a bit better than before. I have a job as a receptionist, and I also have a few people I can call my friends.
But I'm still just as empty as I've been before, and I still don't think life was meant for me. I know that my mental state will get worse again. And I don't want to fail CTB a 3rd time. I want a method that'll work.
I'm in a pretty good financial state right now, so I can make major purchases in order to prepare for CTB. Anything that can be used as poison would be the best for me, but I don't want it to be painful, I'm really scared of a painful death. I'm not brave enough to try any methods that involve pain.
Can you please help me? What method(s) do you recommend? Any resources you can point me to where I can purchase something that can be used as poison? Overdosing could also be a good method, and as I've said before, money isn't an issue. I'm willing to spend a lot on this, I'm even willing to purchase from private sources. Thanks in advance!
But I'm still just as empty as I've been before, and I still don't think life was meant for me. I know that my mental state will get worse again. And I don't want to fail CTB a 3rd time. I want a method that'll work.
I'm in a pretty good financial state right now, so I can make major purchases in order to prepare for CTB. Anything that can be used as poison would be the best for me, but I don't want it to be painful, I'm really scared of a painful death. I'm not brave enough to try any methods that involve pain.
Can you please help me? What method(s) do you recommend? Any resources you can point me to where I can purchase something that can be used as poison? Overdosing could also be a good method, and as I've said before, money isn't an issue. I'm willing to spend a lot on this, I'm even willing to purchase from private sources. Thanks in advance!