Venting If there is a god, he should bother my existence once more and take my life.

[Reuthry]

It seems like I am stuck here in this world for sometime more, planning to go before Saint Patrick's Day (my choice of the day is completely unrelated to Saint Patrick's Day event, it's just March 17th), I need some mental preparation to overcome my SI and as it seems it will take some time more.

I have no goals left in life too, there is only playing a piece I like on piano, and honestly I don't really care if can't complete it, it's not that important.

My method is risky but I now think that if there is a big chance that I will die, I should go for it, who knows, maybe I can find another reliable method that I can practice.

After all this suffering many people have, if there is a god, I wonder what the fuck he is doing.

 

[FuneralCry]

I could personally never believe in such a thing as a God, I see existence as being completely meaningless and senseless. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

There is no god. A god would never act this Satanic. We are all just different arrangements of molecules. Some blessed with more ideal arrangements than others.