It's all just suffering to me and that is why I only hope and wish for non-existence, I'd never wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence no matter what, I see existence itself as the most horrific and terrible tragedy that just causes endless amounts of harm and torments existing beings until they die anyway. As long as I exist I'll only ever wish to die, it terrifies me how there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel as long as they exist all while they are destined to be tortured by old age, personally I only hope to never exist again but I wish I could just erase my existence like I never suffered at all. I'll always find existing to be so dreadful, I find it such a painful, futile burden to be conscious and aware at all, to me existence just feels like a mistake, the amount of suffering it causes truly is beyond comprehension.