If only non suicidal people understood how the urge to leave os so strong

[FireFox]

People say suicide is selfish. What these people do not realise is nobody chooses to wake up one morning and leave behind their loved ones forever.

Being suicidal the urge to leave your body and mental state is so strong. I have been fighting it for years and years now I can't fight it anymore. I wake up everyday and when I look in the mirror I don't want to me anymore,

I can't stop crying anymore and I feel like I am drowning. I really wanted to live and be happy. Frequent disappointments in my 20s has made me feel more and more life is not for me. I feel like I am error in God or universes creation because of struggling to find my place in the world. I don't want to leave my family behind. I am very close to my little sister who is in her teens..

My suicidal thoughts have become so strong I can no longer fight it anymore. Everyday I feel flu like and sick even I don't have the flu. I am overwhelmed with everything.

 

[been__ready]

Agreed! CTB was never on my radar as an option until life got too overwhelming.. i simply ran out of options..

You don't just decide to CTB…we aren't wired that way… it's when you've legitimately (for the most part) run out of reasonable options to create a "life worth living" (in DBT terms)..

If someone hasn't been there it's impossible to grasp..

 

[ijustwishtodie]

If only. Unfortunately, a lot of people think that ctb is easy to do and that "if somebody really wants to die, they will find a way to die otherwise they want to live". I think that the reason why people have such an incorrect view on ctb is because the ones who are suicidal are forced to say that they regret being suicidal and aren't allowed to speak their true thoughts about suicide meaning that people never hear the perspective of a suicidal person.