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- Jan 6, 2024
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I've shed so many tears just wishing to be a normal person with normal feelings.
Every single day feels like torture, even the good days. I don't get to enjoy things the way they do, I don't get to relate to people the way they do. Do I really have to live out my life like this? If I end it, my mom would be sad, but if I don't, I just have to be a terrible, unlikable person until I die of old age.
It's not my fault, I know I'm awful to have around, but I wish I could cbt and for them not to hate me. I just want them to understand.
Every single day feels like torture, even the good days. I don't get to enjoy things the way they do, I don't get to relate to people the way they do. Do I really have to live out my life like this? If I end it, my mom would be sad, but if I don't, I just have to be a terrible, unlikable person until I die of old age.
It's not my fault, I know I'm awful to have around, but I wish I could cbt and for them not to hate me. I just want them to understand.