If i keep failing partial is that going to leave lasting damage?

[StoicPizza]

I try partial for hours. Many attempts. I can lightly pass out within seconds. Everything spins. I get full body nerve pain. My body springs up and the partial is failed. I'm noticing each time I do it now, the pain is worse every time I get back up. And it takes shorter duration to start to black out. Umm. Idk what the purpose of this is. Partial & ligature strangulation are all i have access to. And I keep failing those. I'm concerned I may survive with lasting damage including to the brain or nerves. Does anybody recommend i stop and take a break? I don't really have that luxury. I needed to be dead as of Oct 1st and everyday is a second i regret failing and still being alive. I guess I could try CO but not sure if would do it in my car in an open parking lot. Too much agony. This post probably somewhat belongs in recovery and somewhat in suicide discussion page. Thanks if you read or comment

 

[martyrdom]

Yes absolutely. You probably already have some level of brain and nerve damage. Even seconds of strangulation can cause not only brain damage, but issues that will arise years later down the line. I'm telling you this as someone with EMT training.

 

[ummwhaaat]

If you're able to do this many times and keep getting back up then there is something wrong with your setup, and yes - doing this to your body is detrimental