RealLostSoul
once rock bottom, always rock bottom
- Oct 11, 2019
- 211
For me dignity is something important. I have seen my cousins and uncles dropping into the drug life (first weed then harder shit, even heroin). They were all losers. I think its in my families DNA. However, I would rather kill myself than becoming even only a pothead. I don't want my conscious to be altered. THIS is how it's supposed to be - a miserable and depressed life with tons of mental disorders. I know I could drink/smoke the pain away for a temporary amount of time. And honestly it's hella tempting sometimes because my life is unendurable but I stay away from it because I don't want to end up like my fucking cousins. I even feel ashamed for trying out some antidepressants some time ago but doctors told me this might be a real solution, naively didn't I know they were useless. Fuck them doctors.
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