Venting I yearn for a love I threw away.

[ilovepsyschonaut4]

I had the boy of my dreams.

I threw him out though.

I threw out the love of my dreams.

The past will never come back.

Carry me to the edge of the sky and bury me there once and for all.

 

[Lady_V]

Why did you throw him away?

 

[OOUUneverover]

I feel very desperate for a relationship. I want to ctb with someone else that I get to know first. but I have a very specific situation and I don't think I'll ever meet someone I could really relate to.

 

[ilovenewyork]

I know exactly how you feel. Lost the love of my life through carelessness. How I wish I could do it over

 

[jsker]

wasted two years yearning for the two weeks she was mine, can't imagine why i threw that away.

 

[ilovepsyschonaut4]

Why did you throw him away?

I let my parents get in my head about him, they liked him until they realized he wasn't a Mormon, it was more of my mom saying things though..
I still agreed to throw him away though.
I'm a piece of shit, he loved me and I made him hate me.
I just want to rest 6ft under finally.

 

[ilovenewyork]

Have you tried to reach out to him? People do get back together sometimes. He may still love you

 

[Alpacachino]

Just confess and ask for forgiveness. It might work out, it might not. Many people have reconciled.

 

[ilovepsyschonaut4]

Have you tried to reach out to him? People do get back together sometimes. He may still love you

I have, he has said he never wants to see or talk to me again.
He also has a new girlfriend now.
I'd prefer him to be happy.

 

[Lady_V]

I let my parents get in my head about him, they liked him until they realized he wasn't a Mormon, it was more of my mom saying things though..
I still agreed to throw him away though.
I'm a piece of shit, he loved me and I made him hate me.
I just want to rest 6ft under finally.

That is a terrible reason. I hope you won't let them control you like this again. Your parents are supposed to live for you, you are not supposed to live for your parents.

Have you tried to reach out to him? People do get back together sometimes. He may still love you

How could he ever trust her again? You don't do that to people you truly love. If you can do that to someone you love, the point still stands. How could he trust her?

 

[ilovepsyschonaut4]

Just confess and ask for forgiveness. It might work out, it might not. Many people have reconciled.

I've done this, didn't work out good.

 

[Alpacachino]

I've done this, didn't work out good.

The problem is sometimes they will end up hating us. So it won't workout. But also sometimes they will also have been thinking of you. In that case, they'll immediately forgive you and take you back.

I'm sorry it didn't work out.It wasn't completely your decision.Unfortunately, you were also influenced by your parents into making a mistake.

 

[ilovenewyork]

I'm in a very similar predicament. My ex is engaged. So so painful. Just can't accept it

 

[awaitinglove]

i feel you. i'm going through something similar and it sucksss, i feel like i'm dying

 

[babydoctor]

Fuck, that's rough. Being in a mormon family seems like it can be a real devastating pain for the wrong person