Venting I would not be loved the same

[YandereMikuMistress]

Goodmoring it's 4:53am I'm once again up for work just this morning it occurred to me that if I told my long distance partner about what people have done to me in the past,, I know they'd no longer look at me the same nit because I wanted these things from theses people, it was more so forced apon me, but,, I'm basically trying to say that I'm certain my partner couldn't love me the same after knowing about the sexual abuse in my past,, I know they couldn't love me the same,, it hurts,, I genuinely worry about the thought of being abused in that way more recently too because if I where to have to go through that again at this age or even older then they really won't love me,, because I'll be tainted,,
I know they wouldn't look at me the same,, I'm already so tainted but i worry ill be too tainted even for them if they knew of my past.
It's now 5:03am and I should probably get out of the shower work starts soon, mabye im overthinking but I only think that way because I know you.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm so sorry. I don't really have any advice but I hate what those people did to you. I hope you can have a loving relationship with your parner- whether you decide to tell them or not but it must be a terrible burden to carry.

 

[YandereMikuMistress]

I'm so sorry. I don't really have any advice but I hate what those people did to you. I hope you can have a loving relationship with your parner- whether you decide to tell them or not but it must be a terrible burden to carry.

No it's really alright I didn't expect any i guess I just wanted to get it out, I have no where else to go but Here if I want to really talk, tho not literally of course,,but I honestly appreciate the message so thanks.